A day out

Due to the lack of participants and tiredness, we have decided to give up on going to East Coast Park for fellowship.. But after thinking thru and discussing, the few of us decided to go there.. Thank God that i was there.. Just a group of us, Raymond, Jie Lin, Leonard, Charlotte and Me.. Having fun playing bridge, joking and blowing air-con at one another.. Definitely wouldn't forget today for its the first time I rollerbladed!! Fall down like N times but it is still enjoyable.. Now the cute and sweet bois can rollerblade already, just that one fall the other might just fall, its pretty contagious.. Must thank our mentors for the good teachings.. haa

After all these fun we had.. We went down to New York New York for dinner, surprised to see a smurf and fatts there too.. There we continue to bridge and have a wonderful dinner together, sharing is so much fun..

I believe I can come out of the valley. There are people who care and are willing to help.. Feel so much better after sharing my thoughts and toils with Raymond, making me realize that not only I feel the same.. So I strongly encourage myself and people who are the same to take a step of faith courageously, trusting and believing in Him.

The Banquet

First time that I initiated to watch a 'wu xia' movie.. Don't really like to watch such shows, cause they are boring and draggy. But this is different.. I got attracted to the show because of Zhou Xun and Ziyi Zhang.. They are such powerful and good actresses after Gong Li [ I like her role as Hatsumomo]. Later i realise that this show portraits the harsh reality of life, backstabbing and hypocrites do exist. Sometimes we don't know which side to stand on to protect ourselves and our love ones..

Kinda pity 'Qing Nu'.. dying for her unconditional love for 'Prince Wu Luan' although she kinda caused her own death.. Till the end of the show, I still cant tell whether the empress wan er is a good character or a villain.. even when she died.. She was so power hungry that she could kill anyone in her way.. Sometimes love is really powerful..

Take it ALL

The LORD is my shepherd;
I do not want.

Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Life's like this.. Ya.. Off i go into the valley again.. Cant help it.. Depressed.. See what a long break can do to me.. Make me ponder and think about too many things. Life's a struggle with Life itself.. When will i step out of this valley? i dunno..

Playing on the slide

Seems like it, the journey is ending; i suppose so. It doesn't seem to be as simple as it is before, not as heartwarming as before and definitely not as ideal as before. It is obviously more demanding, more unpleasant and more pressurizing. Do i have a vision? Until now I don't.

Redeeming the time, for the days are evil.
So I need to learn to number my days and not waste them.

Life isn't that good all the time yar?

Giving In

Its time to brace up and face it.. I'm nearing 20 and ORD and i don't have much achievements.. Am i good enough? Am i Faithful? Am i a good friend/ listener? I cant judge myself but what i can do is to try and be a better person then..

Anger, Hurt, Fear, Regret, Intention, Love.. I give in..

Sick

Guessed i must have scared a lot of people.. I felt so weak.. cant walk properly, breathlessness fills me.. and coldness kills me.. I had food poisoning, although i wished it was because of the cookhouse' breakfast.. it isn't.. Its not expired cornflakes either.. Its some oyster omelette i ate that might be too oily and raw ya.. Anyway, i felt so much better today.. Imagine yesterday i was still wearing jeans, a polo tee and a jacket and with blanket and socks, sleeping without air con or a fan.. and still i felt cold.. vomitted so badly at night.. yucks.. no more hor fun for me.. i suppose i will go bland this few days.. Milo is now my best fren.. lol..

But i want to thank god ya, for not forsaking me ya.. not that He 'blessed' me with this sickness, but actually showed me how much i'm cared for.. my family showered me with care and concern which i deeply appreciated.. I could ask for food from mum anytime when i'm hungry.. my sis give in to me.. Dad came to camp and drove me home.. Friends would ask whether if i'm alright.. willing to pray for me.. Really grateful, i can recover so fast by the grace of God ya.. He's my Jehovah Rapha..

Food Galore!

Since its the post-outfield time, one can definitely spot traces of 40SAR soldiers on Orchard road's restaurants, big or small, buffet or ala carte.. eating their hearts out.. I'm one of them too, and i'm glad that i have the company of a group of fun guys while having a ma fan tasty meal @ NEWYORK² on Sat.. and then having desserts at NYDC to round up, bringing the food trip to an end.. I guessed we had the most fun with the massaging chairs, where our legs are tickled and squeezed awkwardly.. however, it still feels good.. haha

This is not the end.. after sun service i went to food fest with Annie, Jac and Zihao, looking for exotic and delicious snacks.. First up, me and Zihao helped ourselves to a Black Sesame ice- cream and Green tea ice cream.. Then, we all had egg tarts, after that is bbq char chiew Pao then satays larger and juicier than the usual ones, then 2 sistas had laksa together while zihao gets a shark fin soup, something worth mentioning is the durian puffs, the taste is so explosive, that even now i still burp durian! Wow! So fulfilling.. and meal is ended with hmm.. a packet of fried mushroom crisps wasabi flavoured!! So cool lor.. i like wasabi!

No matter how life is.. we still need to eat and live, so y not enjoy them while we could?

Anger Management

God, i say to you now, that i give you my anger, that i shall be angry when i should, but in a totally controlled manner. I will not sin against you but to find the best way to resolve the problem. For i love you like you love me.. Agape

Ord-ing

Thank God, it's all over.. the many many dirty outfields have finally finished.. Was wondering how i managed to clear it.. it seems so far then.. but now its all over.. no more field camps.. no more signal sets (at least for now) and no more gigiantic map boards! Oh no, i forgot to step on the Tes' set which is extremely bulky and heavy, even heavier than my signal set.. Yea.. finally i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.. closing to be Operational ready NSmen.. time to get a life haha..

It's time to reflect and plan what's ahead, especially offs and leaves ya.. been slogging so much that i think i need a decent break, to clean up my horrible room and virus-juicy computer.. and also find joy in what i'm doing.. been into too much stress and pressure that i feel depressed at times.. haha.. however, i guess its alright already.. haa.. going for morning jog + breakfast.. Ciao..

Why bother?

Everyone's linked up.. by relationship, blood or bond.. and it takes lots of time to make them work.. i definitely know that.. Pray that i could step out of the asocial and avoidant personality and work towards a better relationship.. Ministry people all nice people.. thanks Issac, Joseph, Elaine, Caroline and Wai Sum.. =]

Farmer.. wake up please?

i'm tired

This couldn't be more obvious.. I'm tired.. running out of breath.. blogging in the middle of the night.. haha.. turning a bit cranky and screw loosed nowadays.. at least not being loose and leading a promiscous life.. Time that i wished i have more time..

I read the book 'King Me' which is a parenting book which i accidentally [ i believe incidentally by God.. He set me up] chanced upon in the library.. It questioned my faith and for the first time, giving me doubts about the beliefs of my own church.. The book strengthened me spiritually and i gained much knowledge from it, whether does it applies to daily life, the struggle to maintain a good relationship with my parents but also biblical studies that teaches lessons that could be learnt from few Kings, namely King David and King Solomon.. What stunted me was one of the chapter speaking right into my heart, something that had been bothering me for so long, is about to be released from me, that i may become a much better person. Thank God!

Found it very much comfortable talking to Wei yuan about leading the Christian Lifestyle, how he managed to walk in faith although there are road blocks and tripping stones around in his path..

One last thing: people that you think you are close to might not be the ones who would stand by you in time of needs. But God does! [ but that's another story]. What i mean is where are the people when you need help? Why is it that people come and share your glory and fruits of labour when you clearly know that they din put in as much as you do.. or not even placing a finger on it? Can it be justified? Teach me.. should i continue complaining? Definitely not, and surely, i would not give face or keep silence if that happens again.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

Bad Bad week

Praise god today, cause that will bring about a positive attitude and will definitely take away all the bad stuff that happen..

This week is really bad, all about working till i'm exhausted.. sleeping very early at 9pm++ every night, found myself complaining alot about work, maps, blown ups, air photos, perfectionism, 4ntm, blah... very disturbed, stressed, tired and cant be bothered.. Thank god it's over.. heh.. and from next week, i must try my best to accomplish more.. not to live in bitterness, living up to what i should be.. Yeah.. remember Psalms 23:4!!

Story of the farmer

Well, i'm no story teller, but i guess this is what i can do to help someone in need of help and do not know that he or she requires it.. I would encourage people to face their problems and not to hide from them as no matter what happens, it would affect you the most, not me, not other people..

Simple, a farmer sows his seeds on the fields.. and collects harvests twice a year.. He has a few workers with him, loyal and helpful, never really complain about having overworked. They shared meals, laughter and joy. One day, the farmer fell for gambling and decided to wind up his small little business that is stable. He hardly win, but fell deeper and deeper.. no matter how his workers and friends try to bring him back and counsel him, he just got more addicted and spent days and nights thinking of gambling, getting really bad-tempered and changed totally.. He lost his smile, and his workers' hearts shattered.. seeing that the farmer landed in such a bad shape and situation. Gambling brought to him nothing but depression, fury and self-pity.. The more he give, the sadder he feels.. withered and unhappy.. Here's what the workers' say, " we need you back, our hands are always stretched out towards u for u to hold onto us, to save and rescue u from ur dilemma and woes. we might not be always physically there, but bear in mind, gambling has harmed u enough isn't it? y keep on hanging on? it does u no good.. we'll support you, alright?"

farmer, wise up will ya?

Advancing into the Next Level

All things follow in a pattern.

1. Introduction -- Aquaintance -- Friendship -- Intimacy

Been enlightened by the word of God.. its like a new revelation to me. Knowing that God wants to restore back the intimacy with man once more through Jesus Christ, knowing that all man are born sinful and needed to be introduced to God before knowing God, establishing relationship with God and further on getting an intimate relationship with God.

2. Information + Renewal of the Mind = Beliefs -- Self Esteem -- Actions/Behaviour -- Results -- Habits -- Success or Failure

Realising how information and the changing of how i think can affect my success or failure to a certain issue, it is so important to receive the best information and renew my mind in the correct way to developing the right attitude, great authority and dignity to be able to take charge and be responsible over what i do, giving me results and progression into success..

God bless!

Bookstore Uncle

todae is the 2nd time that i serve at the bookstore, this time round dressed formally [ some say i look good, some say i look like attending wedding dinner, some say look like uncle.. haha] as Dr. A.R.Benard is the guest speaker this week.. I arrived at Hall 8 @ around 8.05am with Issac and Joseph.. I was shocked by the no. of copies of books i see there.. the one titled 'happiness is' by Dr A.R.Benard.. there are so many stacks of them that me and Elaine wouldn't know how to display them to look most presentable efficiently.. We ended up stacking buildings and castles like what Samuel did.. Something i noticed was how people there really tried to remember one another name, being friendly and helpful with one another..

When the crowds started pouring in, it was overwhelming.. People were buying books by stacks.. I was about to place some more stocks on the lighted tanker when a lady walked over and asked for 9 copies.. Then i have to get more stocks already, half the time i was trying my best to approach people and help them if necessary, not to forget directing people to the wrong place for the autograph session.. not on purpose, wai sum and i are guilty of that.. todae's service was so packed that we were wondering if we could get a seat in the audi.. and i did heh.. proud of that.. getting thru so many ushers and people..

It's friendship appreciation time.. really want to thank N162 for bringing joy to my life, being a cosy place to grow spiritually with so many brothers and sisters, able to know more about one another.. Recieved so many chocolate and cards, appreciate that alot..

And its also a fun time of fellowship with the CG and subzone at Meridien JC.. lol.. imagine someone playing netball in long pants, soccer shoes and t-shirt.. weirdx3.. din expect myself to be playing, nevertheless i had a great time playing with the SOC obstacles in the school.. yes.. its the low wall that is as high as the low ramp, low rope, monkey bars, sucide window and parallel bars.. The MVP got to be Charmaine for getting a '3 pointer' shoot when no one could have expected.. haha.. ended at 7pm.. latex3

Its all worth it and i feel satisfied.. Thank God for creating vibrant colours in my life, i will continue to serve Him well. Hallejulah

Long time

I cant believe that i've been so busy that i cud not blog at all.. Although it uses a bit of my time, yet it tells me of what i am going through and wad have i accomplished..

Especially last week i went for the firework festival at Marina Bay, setting off at 7plus, only to find out that everyone's there since long before that time and the crowds and the traffic jams are extremely scary.. Since when do we have so many people? Anyway, we found a good place @ Marina south grass field to watch the amazingly gorgeous firework.. i really like the 'Money tree' alot since the last time i saw it at NDP when i was in Sec 3.. Now i actually see a lot of money trees bursting in the sky.. It was SO beautiful! And i was happily eating a curry chicken drumstick when watching.. haha.. Soon after the short firework and the show is over, we all moved on to Geylang for durians! not a lot la, but few good ones and we left looking for more food around Geylang, especially frog leg porridge.. but we cant find a parking lot and so we went to Bt Timah Market for Carrot Cake, satay and fried oyster egg.. felt very full after that.. Satisfying.. Life's good when hanging out with family and good food..

This week, has been a tough one for me.. terrors of outfield, i'm still itching right now.. and today i just did a 16km run at ECP, and its such a long route.. i'm still wondering if i would be able to complete 21km.. my legs are about to burst with cramps..

Pointers to take this week:
1. Do not eat ice-cream that someone else feeds you, you might end up licking the person's hand.. haha..
2. Do not be tempted or else stomach upsets follow.. got a very bad experience after the run today which i tink is related to thursday nights off..
3. Try to stay out of the offices.. u wun want to have ur name called for SK..

Pop Culture

Basically I'm sucker for pop music, although once in a while i would prefer something more smoothing like the good old sentimental oldies or chinese songs. Nevertheless, I listen to good music everything, some trashy songs included.

Brings me back to my point, that songs all just go according to the liking to the listeners, and since Pop is more easily acceptable, it is definitely because it is rather addictive and catchy. So people, bear with it, especially when songs RING in our heads, spinning round and round like how L.O.V.E. makes the world go round.. wadeva it means ( quoted from ja)


Sun's music sounds really good. Something which i call music that heals the soul. Songs that people can relate to easily. Songs that encourage one to move on and see the light. This is definitely not some trashy pop songs that focus on bootylicious figures in the mtvs or some cutie pies that are too sweet to be true. Music for the heart i must say. =D

Talk around

I never like talking to people.. and talking for the sake of talking, although at times we need to communicate with people to know them more and also to prevent situations from getting more awkward. It is especially essential to know the ways of relating to people and able to express oneself truthfully and positively to others, leaving not just a good impression, but a friendship that follows thru.

We often think that we are just small little beings, one less one more doesn't matter. But God already knows how we look like, how many strands of hair we have, what we would encounter.. way before we are born, even the most minute detail. God has great plans for us. That we should dream dreams and see vision, and fulfill our purpose in life thru Jesus Christ that strengthens us.. I totally agree with CK that although God has plans for us, we are still the one walking the pave that is paved out. One thing to be glad is that God is always walking with us, whether if its the mountain tops or the deep valleys. He would be there to share your joy and sorrows, and comfort one whenever he or she is in need.

Therefore, we need to trust and have faith in God, people around us, ourselves and the future.

Thank you

Thank You for the promises You made,
for the gift of life You gave,
Always I will sing Your praise.

Thank You for the chance to live again,
for Your grace that never ends,
Always I will sing Your praise.

Wanna thank god for the things that He did for me, even if they are just small and minute stuffs, but i greatly appreciate that. Thank god for making me the no.26 of the 30 that the CCC band are going to autograph for after deciding that it was rather late. Thank god for letting me reach home fast and safely with the company of raymond. Thank god for putting people into my life, to befriend me, help me improve and move on in life. Hallelujah!

Great is Our God

its the 2nd time that i attended the Festival of Praise, and this time round with another identity, as a retail serviceman at Attributes at the North Entrance. i certainly do believe that a lot of hard work has to be put in to make the bookstore functioning.. loads of paintings, books, music cds, sermon cds, dvds, accessories and etc to be placed properly and different booths to cater for the customers. Queue marshall, cashiers, retails and logistics.. many people have to work together for the good works.. Work aside, i preferred last year's FOP as the songs were better (Sorry CCC and Don Moen), fact being that it was Hillsong and Delirious? performing. Also that i wasn't able to enjoy the full service due to ministry.. But still, no regrets for anything that i have done for today..

I feel estatic over getting an autograph from and a photo with the CCC band on their latest compilation album: Great is Our God.