How long can i move on like this?

Mum: I heard that in any church, they would take 10% of what you earn every month.
Me: Ya, but you can choose to give or not to give. No one is forced.
Mum: So did you?
Me (Walking away): No.
Mum (Voice becoming distant): Told you not to believe so much already, and you still go every week, so ON for what?

I lied. So, how long can i move on like this?
I seriously wonder.

The change starts here..

Since the beginning of this year.. i sensed the difference in me.. i tend to get a bit less responsible and a bit more reliant on some things.. Still the main thing is that i grew, mentally.. accepting the harsh facts and cruel reality.. Things are no longer like fairy tales.. That's y i am so envious of my students for being so young with unlimited possibilities and endless wonders not yet explored.. Old.. thats how i feel haa.. oh well.. getting old, wise up a bit, get used to life or try getting used to life.. giving up on some things.. blah.. i talk crap..

the change has began, i know..

Lack.. Gain..

I lack of sleep.. seriously.. and my biological clock rings when its 7.30am.. meaning that i only sleep roughly 4-5 hr a day.. not enough~ Thinking of stopping tuition for the K2 student i'm teaching, to cut myself some slack from so much work.. Also thinking of not teaching music, kinda dumb since i don't really know music..

Yeah.. although i don't know how to take care of myself, i'm not getting sick or anything just tired.. Or maybe i don't have enough rest and food, especially dinner.. dotx.. Really surprised and overjoyed to have a nice supper after a HARD day's work.. Gan dong..~~~ Bleahx..

Good morning Mr Ng~

Had a powerpacked day ytd and its only the first day! kinda shocking because i only knew what to teach and a lot of other stuff on the day i report.. the class is huge~ 58 students arent easy to handle especially when they lose concentration easily.. There are some that distract the others.. Some interesting conversations i had with them...

Pupil 1 : Mr Ng, he say that i purposely throw his pencil box on the floor!
Pupil 2: No i didnt [ about to cry]
Pupil 1: That who says he saide that i purposely throw one..
Pupil 2: No Mr Ng [ Tears coming out..]
Me: Whether right or wrong, both of you are in the same class and should make friends with one another.. So both of you, i want you to shake hands and say sorry. Do not point fingers at one another. [ I thought i sound stupid]

Pupil 3: Teacher i brought money, can i buy my book later during recess? [ kids are still kids]

And after this tiring day in school, i had to teach tuition at 8pm.. A bright but playful boy who is very active.. He kept running in and out of his room and talking a lot of funny senseless stuff with me.. Dunno how much i can help him but i find it enjoyable teaching him.

Me.. A teacher? I'll see about that..

Year 2007

A new year began without a sign
All i can do is look back and sigh..

What have i done for the past year
Mistakes shall not repeat in this year..

Change myself to be a better one
Happiness is all i want..

Short term goals
1. New set of Ear-phone
2. A Good Laptop
3. If possible, new furnitures and oven.
4. New year shopping in Malaysia

Long term goals
1. Lose weight till 60kg, staying healthy
2. Go back to baking and brush up my skills.
3. Change my wardrobe.
4. Finish paying my tithes and building funds on time.
5. Be a more loving person and meet up more with my friends and relatives.

Hope i can be happier~

Good morning Class

Guess that will be what i'll be saying for the next 3 months, at least.. Needless to say, its my new job at Woodgrove Primary as a teacher. Sounds weird when people address me as Mr Ng though, gives me sort of a formal feel. I finally grew up.. Yeah.. few years ago i was sitting in the seat in class, learning and absorbing what the teacher has to offer.. or maybe even cursing and gossiping about the teacher. But now i'm one of them now.. Truly its a funny feeling..

Really want to thank God for giving me this job as a very nice NEW YEAR present.. hee.. Some time ago, i was actually angry with God for being nasty to me that He gives me things and then take them away.. first it was the TCC job + my fone lost on malacca trip and later a teaching job in Dunearn.. But now it all work out fine that made me believe that all things work for good for people who love God.. I got a job right on and starting work the very tomoro 04/01/07!!