Happy Sin

Its just chocolates and sweets, filled with love, that really brighten up my day.. love it.. Though it is sinful and unhealthy, i shall not share with anyone else except..

It's the little things that people do that show that they care and love us, therefore we must be more appreciative towards the things that people do for us, specially for us.. Never take things for granted..

Yay!! Something amazing happened this morning.. All thanks to God.. At first i only have a friend, which is Jin Yao for service and i was really grateful le.. But this morning i received sms from ym that he has got a friend too.. somehow my heart got stirred and i sms another 2 friends.. Wei Kuan and Yuci.. And WK agreed to come too.. Thank God.. Yuci cant make it, but he agreed to come for Christmas.. Not only that, i already booked quite a lot of people for Christmas, looks like the love of God is really spreading, through us as well!

Desperatoir Ep01

Desperate Housewives - despite of its bitchy, juicy and sabotage set and characters entertaining teeveetians like us, i find that the show has shown women in a different perspectives. They do things to achieve what they want. That's for sure. Whether if it is the hint or the obvious loud way. Not that i disapprove of that and i don't really hold the rights anyway, its that i can actually relate to one or two of the characters in the show..

Lynette Scavo

A typical housewife who place her husband and her children before her, and would use every ways, whether up above or down under, just to make sure that she has got the best solutions, at least to her, for people she love and care for.. She is usually 'democratic' but she thinks a lot, much more further than the situation itself, and when she cant bottom it anymore, it will be released like a storm.. She is strong, filled with burdens, yet living life as it goes and not complaining. She needs a break that would never come, from her work and housework.. She got her dreams and desires but could not be fulfilled, these are the sacrifices she has to make for her family. Life's never easy for her but she wun throw in the towel.. FIGHT on's her attitude to life..

Time..

Been wanting to make this entry yesterday but was interrupted by the lag in the browser and also the need to help mum add many new songs into her new mp4 player.. She took me more than an hour to add in just the female singers' songs..

7 Days is only a week.. But the last 7 Days has been special to me.. It has been the happy and fulfilling time for me.. Really contented with what i've got.. It doesn't seem like 7 Days and i don't feel like time is dragging or what..

This song has been playing on my playlist for a long long time.. Meaningful to me at least.. hee..

可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃

Current Status

if i'm getting a sore throat tomoro, it's definitely someone's fault for giving me so much nuts to eat.. Eat so much nuts at one go, and gosh, it was exciting trying to 'tui huo' when i got too much of it..

haa.. It was funny figuring and guessing what color was the fruitip pastille before eating.. Way to solve the problem --> eat it please.. however the blackcurrant taste a bit orange.. so weird but sweet..

Enuff with food ba.. gonna nurse my throat tomoro i guess.. need more water but not sparkling drink hee.. there are things i don't do because i usually don't do it.. but i'll try however as long as it promises positive results and returns =P..

Cant wait to settle on my schedule this weekend, someone gonna bring me out~ gee

We're in this together

Time passed thru fast these few days.. Especially my COS duty that ended so soon without me feeling that time is dragging.. Getting to know the other COSes [and also people left in coy line.. we are known as the leftovers.. heh] and working together, talking about what we want to do in the future.. what future holds i dunno.. trying to be positive about it.. or i have always been optimistic lar.. looks good to me anyway.. haa..

Actually in quite a good mood recently.. hmm.. Watch the buffy musicial @ youtube.com, the songs are nice! Found a new way of drinking water and fruitips have never tasted so good before.. haa

Crossroad

Affirmation.. what the heck.. i'm really confused.. sometimes things in life arent just right or wrong, black or white.. hence the existence of partially and grey areas. Me, for instance, is stuck in the moment.. need some time to think it over, it's complicating anyway.. and in many ways.. haa.. i am one lame screwed up..

whateva.. really looking forward to the malaysia trip, been waiting for a time to relax and have fun overseas and india doesnt count.. and i really count my blessings and want to treasure what i have in my life.. especially friends and family.. haiz.. thank god for being with me even at my downest moments.. i will be honest and faithful.. thank god for the blessings even before i pledge and i'm definitely waiting on God to pour down his blessings forever and ever.!~

Back on track

Been a long time ever since i last blogged.. a lot of things happen and yet i was unable to take control of all of them and be a part in some of them.. Haa.. here's the list..

1. I fired my dear driving instructor for entrusting so much errands such as driving him to the repair shop, coffee shop and toilet breaks. Wondering how come no coffin shop?

2. Movie galore: the prestige - movie with scarlett as a big vase, black dahlia - another movie with scarlett as a big vase that moves, think Hilary Swank did better in the movie. Death note - A great manga turned movie only to realise that light isn't as dashing as the manga's and L is really laid back and cool!

3. Realising that God is always faithful and working in mystery.

4. I'm on leave most of the time and spending little chalet holidays in camp once in a while.. Kinda exciting as well.. ORD mood is lingering in the air..

5. Found a job as a TCC service crew.. gaining experience a bit late but nevertheless, a cuppa is always heartwarming and flavorful.. and also as an bookseller assistant at Westgrove

6. Going KL twice in Nov/Dec.. Cool and tiring i dare say, not forgetting Wei Quan's proposal of going Bangkok.. still thinking through..

Manhood

What a subject to touch on?! I've decided to take a big step of faith.. Trust God that He would bless me many many folds as I serve and give faithfully to the kingdom of God..

Without planning, I plan to fail.. Decided to go according to some sort of pattern, to save myself from getting wasted; wasting time, i.e wasting my life and spoiling myself.. That needs lots of determination and discipline.. I know that.. God will pull me thru'.. Yea.

It's such a bad idea to sneak for a late night movie.. Although the show was definitely exciting and intriguing.. But i don't feel good.. I really don't.. Haiz.. what has been done cannot be undone.. I better start working on how to save it.. PLANs.. and SoluTionS!

Miracles

Some things are definitely unbelieveable.. an relationship can turn sour anytime, the table can turn around.. Things made good can go bad.. Therefore we need miracles to happen.. I want to make things happen!

A day out

Due to the lack of participants and tiredness, we have decided to give up on going to East Coast Park for fellowship.. But after thinking thru and discussing, the few of us decided to go there.. Thank God that i was there.. Just a group of us, Raymond, Jie Lin, Leonard, Charlotte and Me.. Having fun playing bridge, joking and blowing air-con at one another.. Definitely wouldn't forget today for its the first time I rollerbladed!! Fall down like N times but it is still enjoyable.. Now the cute and sweet bois can rollerblade already, just that one fall the other might just fall, its pretty contagious.. Must thank our mentors for the good teachings.. haa

After all these fun we had.. We went down to New York New York for dinner, surprised to see a smurf and fatts there too.. There we continue to bridge and have a wonderful dinner together, sharing is so much fun..

I believe I can come out of the valley. There are people who care and are willing to help.. Feel so much better after sharing my thoughts and toils with Raymond, making me realize that not only I feel the same.. So I strongly encourage myself and people who are the same to take a step of faith courageously, trusting and believing in Him.

The Banquet

First time that I initiated to watch a 'wu xia' movie.. Don't really like to watch such shows, cause they are boring and draggy. But this is different.. I got attracted to the show because of Zhou Xun and Ziyi Zhang.. They are such powerful and good actresses after Gong Li [ I like her role as Hatsumomo]. Later i realise that this show portraits the harsh reality of life, backstabbing and hypocrites do exist. Sometimes we don't know which side to stand on to protect ourselves and our love ones..

Kinda pity 'Qing Nu'.. dying for her unconditional love for 'Prince Wu Luan' although she kinda caused her own death.. Till the end of the show, I still cant tell whether the empress wan er is a good character or a villain.. even when she died.. She was so power hungry that she could kill anyone in her way.. Sometimes love is really powerful..

Take it ALL

The LORD is my shepherd;
I do not want.

Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Life's like this.. Ya.. Off i go into the valley again.. Cant help it.. Depressed.. See what a long break can do to me.. Make me ponder and think about too many things. Life's a struggle with Life itself.. When will i step out of this valley? i dunno..

Playing on the slide

Seems like it, the journey is ending; i suppose so. It doesn't seem to be as simple as it is before, not as heartwarming as before and definitely not as ideal as before. It is obviously more demanding, more unpleasant and more pressurizing. Do i have a vision? Until now I don't.

Redeeming the time, for the days are evil.
So I need to learn to number my days and not waste them.

Life isn't that good all the time yar?

Giving In

Its time to brace up and face it.. I'm nearing 20 and ORD and i don't have much achievements.. Am i good enough? Am i Faithful? Am i a good friend/ listener? I cant judge myself but what i can do is to try and be a better person then..

Anger, Hurt, Fear, Regret, Intention, Love.. I give in..

Sick

Guessed i must have scared a lot of people.. I felt so weak.. cant walk properly, breathlessness fills me.. and coldness kills me.. I had food poisoning, although i wished it was because of the cookhouse' breakfast.. it isn't.. Its not expired cornflakes either.. Its some oyster omelette i ate that might be too oily and raw ya.. Anyway, i felt so much better today.. Imagine yesterday i was still wearing jeans, a polo tee and a jacket and with blanket and socks, sleeping without air con or a fan.. and still i felt cold.. vomitted so badly at night.. yucks.. no more hor fun for me.. i suppose i will go bland this few days.. Milo is now my best fren.. lol..

But i want to thank god ya, for not forsaking me ya.. not that He 'blessed' me with this sickness, but actually showed me how much i'm cared for.. my family showered me with care and concern which i deeply appreciated.. I could ask for food from mum anytime when i'm hungry.. my sis give in to me.. Dad came to camp and drove me home.. Friends would ask whether if i'm alright.. willing to pray for me.. Really grateful, i can recover so fast by the grace of God ya.. He's my Jehovah Rapha..

Food Galore!

Since its the post-outfield time, one can definitely spot traces of 40SAR soldiers on Orchard road's restaurants, big or small, buffet or ala carte.. eating their hearts out.. I'm one of them too, and i'm glad that i have the company of a group of fun guys while having a ma fan tasty meal @ NEWYORK² on Sat.. and then having desserts at NYDC to round up, bringing the food trip to an end.. I guessed we had the most fun with the massaging chairs, where our legs are tickled and squeezed awkwardly.. however, it still feels good.. haha

This is not the end.. after sun service i went to food fest with Annie, Jac and Zihao, looking for exotic and delicious snacks.. First up, me and Zihao helped ourselves to a Black Sesame ice- cream and Green tea ice cream.. Then, we all had egg tarts, after that is bbq char chiew Pao then satays larger and juicier than the usual ones, then 2 sistas had laksa together while zihao gets a shark fin soup, something worth mentioning is the durian puffs, the taste is so explosive, that even now i still burp durian! Wow! So fulfilling.. and meal is ended with hmm.. a packet of fried mushroom crisps wasabi flavoured!! So cool lor.. i like wasabi!

No matter how life is.. we still need to eat and live, so y not enjoy them while we could?

Anger Management

God, i say to you now, that i give you my anger, that i shall be angry when i should, but in a totally controlled manner. I will not sin against you but to find the best way to resolve the problem. For i love you like you love me.. Agape

Ord-ing

Thank God, it's all over.. the many many dirty outfields have finally finished.. Was wondering how i managed to clear it.. it seems so far then.. but now its all over.. no more field camps.. no more signal sets (at least for now) and no more gigiantic map boards! Oh no, i forgot to step on the Tes' set which is extremely bulky and heavy, even heavier than my signal set.. Yea.. finally i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.. closing to be Operational ready NSmen.. time to get a life haha..

It's time to reflect and plan what's ahead, especially offs and leaves ya.. been slogging so much that i think i need a decent break, to clean up my horrible room and virus-juicy computer.. and also find joy in what i'm doing.. been into too much stress and pressure that i feel depressed at times.. haha.. however, i guess its alright already.. haa.. going for morning jog + breakfast.. Ciao..

Why bother?

Everyone's linked up.. by relationship, blood or bond.. and it takes lots of time to make them work.. i definitely know that.. Pray that i could step out of the asocial and avoidant personality and work towards a better relationship.. Ministry people all nice people.. thanks Issac, Joseph, Elaine, Caroline and Wai Sum.. =]

Farmer.. wake up please?

i'm tired

This couldn't be more obvious.. I'm tired.. running out of breath.. blogging in the middle of the night.. haha.. turning a bit cranky and screw loosed nowadays.. at least not being loose and leading a promiscous life.. Time that i wished i have more time..

I read the book 'King Me' which is a parenting book which i accidentally [ i believe incidentally by God.. He set me up] chanced upon in the library.. It questioned my faith and for the first time, giving me doubts about the beliefs of my own church.. The book strengthened me spiritually and i gained much knowledge from it, whether does it applies to daily life, the struggle to maintain a good relationship with my parents but also biblical studies that teaches lessons that could be learnt from few Kings, namely King David and King Solomon.. What stunted me was one of the chapter speaking right into my heart, something that had been bothering me for so long, is about to be released from me, that i may become a much better person. Thank God!

Found it very much comfortable talking to Wei yuan about leading the Christian Lifestyle, how he managed to walk in faith although there are road blocks and tripping stones around in his path..

One last thing: people that you think you are close to might not be the ones who would stand by you in time of needs. But God does! [ but that's another story]. What i mean is where are the people when you need help? Why is it that people come and share your glory and fruits of labour when you clearly know that they din put in as much as you do.. or not even placing a finger on it? Can it be justified? Teach me.. should i continue complaining? Definitely not, and surely, i would not give face or keep silence if that happens again.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!