All in A Nutshell

Too many things happened out of a sudden, so i'll just go thru it one by one quickly.

Caramel blended coffee, is that enough to last thru the nite? Well, don't have to..

First time having breakfast in Cafe Cartel. Had a very nice ham and cheese omlette, topped with muffin and bread, with a glass of milk. Dear dear had a mushroom and cheese omlette. Was quite full after the breakfast, still think that i would probably skip lunch..




But.. Went out with yimin and ck to Vivocity for lunch at Terra Cafe. had a super cheesy baked rice while they had chicken cultet and fish and chips. Was funny when Ck thot that the plate of wedges belonged to him when the waiter came to our table. Was walking around till we got tired, as usual. So we went to 'Super hotdog' for a drink. I think one of these days i should eat there, it seems like a cheaper Carl's Jr. They both had an iced mocha, which we think is worse than kopitiam's coffee. I had a good strawberry ice blended. =] Took some photos, funny enough..





After that, i went for dinner with dear dear and khor @ kopitiam, where i thot its the food court, but turned out to be a restaurant under the swissotel group. The first thing that caught my eye was the $9 roti prata. The ambience was really good, quite comfortable talking with khor, nice person. We ordered a meal for 2 and a chicken rice. Interesting conversation there =P Then went off for a late night mahjong game which i won $80.. was quite lucky actually.. Heavy rain that night..



Back to church again in a long time, the presence of God was lingering around me when i stepped into the church, that was a good feeling. But somehow part of me was hardened and refuse to surrender fully. Guess that it would take time for me to accept Christ again.. Went out with Char Leo Ray and Ym after that, Settlers' Cafe, where we play our favorite game, 'Ticket to ride'.. Was good to see them again, talking about what we are recently up to, to know more about what is happening in church and the cell group. Then i went to town to collect my altered pants. Waited 30 minutes for my strawberry smoothies, hee.. including 2 times which they gave me the wrong drink. Had hokkien mee and beef noodles for dinner and a nice dessert. No durian..~!



Tired, but the sacrifice of little sleep gives me so much happiness~!

Haa

Today something absurd happened to me..

I remembered myself getting slashed deeply.
1: I regret for not trying enuff with u.. giving u so much hurts..
2: Chey.. Is that all u wan to say?
1: wad do u expect?
After that, i got slashed again on the same wound..

Call this a regret.. i wished i wasn't so curious to listen at all..

S.H.E- 中國話 MV

Fascinated by the '绕口令' in the song, would think that this is an interesting song..

What's with the service?

Something is wrong with services nowadays.. Was pretty shocked that although prices of food are going up, the quality of service is still the same, or even worse.

1.} Was buying takeaways for myself, sis and dad. A total of 3 packets all different ingredients, so i was chosing as i was ordering. The auntie wasn't very patient, as she was walking she was saying 'no more from this side already ar',' still got a not'.. Was pretty irritated by that attitude, and mumbling dunno what somemore..

2.} Bubble tea for my sis, so b4 me was a ger buying peppermint milktea, one of my favorites. The auntie was on the fone, and so she just anyhow pour an amt of peppermint syrup, that was gross lor.. anyhow make anyhow sell.. Where's the standard?? I was shocked..

What to do? Send them for lessons meh?

Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you'll get or when you'll get it.

Dunearn

Was back to Dunearn this morning to look for Mdm CHao, letting her know that i've been offered the teaching award and inviting her to the ceremony. Had a chat with her about teaching.. She has been promoted recently and going for some ceremony this weekend, and she was made to teach PW and CME.. A Chinese teacher teaching in English, how embarrassing can that be.. But i guess life comes with give and take, you have your fun and joy teaching, therefore you have to take in the late nights works, despair and pressure with work. I love a challenging life now.. Unlike in the past, rather be the one staying in a dead corner..

The pirate ship is available. The blur person has bought the tix to go on board, waiting to set off for the journey for endless riches and happiness, hoping that he will not be thrown off to the sharks. Along the way, there will be stormy days and hurricane. The pirate ship has to be better equipped and ready and the person has to be geared up too. Cant really go wrong when there's a map right? hee..

Keep it On

Went for an efficient shopping trip, got what I want except for that olive green shirt, don't seem to see it anywhere yet.. Carry on looking~!! Don't know what I should write here, but I feel great and happy these few days, guess it's the company~ Baked some banana chocolate chip muffins today, i think they looked great, smell good and taste superb! Self praise is no praise.. bleahx..

Blabbering

Just some blabbering before I start my day with some other work..

Went for a party which ck and i stayed for about 15mins, finding that it's rather awkward and we should be spending the time eating or shopping instead. And so, we had desserts, his treat, ironically just his desserts so being always late, i would already had spent a day waiting for him! However we only managed to find the shop with his great sense of direction, i remember walking to the garbage collection point behind the coffee shop.. haa.. i am famous for getting lost anywhere.. Still wondering why Chinatown is a famous stop for tourists.. If you want something more 'chinese', why don't you go to China?




Bought a book.. Yep! The book i've been looking for, the diary of Aya.. To my surprise, her mum also released a diary which tells us about her thoughts about Aya's condition and how she felt when she fought the illness side by side with Aya. Should take me some time to read because it is written in old chinese, and they are written vertically down and not horizontal..



Movie and dinner after that, had an enjoyable time with my 'date'.. dotx.. Feeling a bit guilty cause i agreed to watch it with someone else one.. but nevertheless, i'm glad i've watched it. Enjoying chocolates now~




Moo...~~~

ADHD

I have a serious problem. I don't really want to let go of the Pri 3 kid just because he has ADHD and learning difficulties. I don't want to shortchange him. I shouldn't give up on him just like that. But the practical me feels that it's only right that I stop tutoring him. Anyone else would do that. Who would want to teach with so much problems at such a low pay. It's true, low pay, long hours, loads of anger and unhappiness. Yet, this kid deserves a chance to be taught too. He needs to be understood and to be educated well. Not just dump him when we find problems with him. Think of it that parents dump their kid when they are born handicapped or wad, isn't that equally cruel. Was thinking about this equality thingy the whole time, nothing can ever be fairly treated, since this fairness is also made from humans. Everyone has a ruler in their heart. Different length and measurements. WHo can ever judge that what ever is fair. No one. No one can.

These are some of the things i read up.. doesn't give me any light yet..

How Is ADHD Treated?
Because there's no cure for ADHD, doctors treat people by helping them to manage the symptoms most effectively. Because some people have more trouble with the attention side of the disorder and others have more problems with the activity side, doctors tailor their treatment to the person's symptoms. So different people with ADHD may have different treatments.

Because ADHD is a broad category covering different things — attention, activity, and impulsivity — it can show up in different ways in different people. Some of the signs of ADHD are when someone:

has difficulty paying attention or staying focused on a task or activity
has problems finishing assignments at school or home and jumps from one activity to another
has trouble focusing on instructions and difficulty following through
loses or forgets things such as homework
is easily distracted, even when doing something fun
has problems paying close attention to details or makes careless mistakes
has trouble organizing tasks and activities
has difficulty waiting one's turn
interrupts or intrudes on other people
blurts out answers before questions have been completed
fidgets with hands or feet or squirms about when seated
feels restless
talks excessively and has trouble engaging in activities quietly

What Is Dyslexia?

Dyslexia (pronounced: dis-lek-see-ah) is a type of learning disability. A person with a learning disability has trouble processing words or numbers. There are several kinds of learning disabilities; dyslexia is the term used when people have difficulty learning to read, even though they are smart enough and are motivated to learn. The word dyslexia comes from two Greek words: dys, which means abnormal or impaired, and lexis, which refers to language or words.

Dyslexia is not a disease. It's a condition that you are born with, and it often runs in families. People with dyslexia are not stupid or lazy. Most have average or above-average intelligence, and they work very hard to overcome their learning problems.

PS3 vs. Wii - Apple Style!

This is what I've been talking about with my JC classmates! Really funny~

Busy

Was in school half the day doing nothing.. But I managed to keep myself occupied by compiling the revision for term 3 which is due only next week, and now its all done. Went to the bank to update account and to get the MOE giro form verified. Took me some time there and the teller was impressed that I'm teaching in a JC at a young age. =P Manage to know a few friends today and a new tuition deal.. A JC2 student and 2 Sec 4 students need Chemistry tuition.. Most probably would take the 2 Sec 4.. Easier to teach and will not need to throw in a lot of time.. Haa.. Extra pay.. Think by end of May need to tell May that I'm not teaching Yuva le.. Everytime I want to vomit blood teaching.. Not student's fault though, but don't know who to blame also.. I need to keep my weekdays free ba.. As for Gordon, still need to consider, cause I like the family.. haa..

Fun

Yet again, I find food on my table.. Had to ask around le.. 2nd time i see food on my table.. So i went over to Jeanette and saw the packaging of the food on her table.. Ah! its her.. haa.. Friendly teacher I know here who actually approached me and talked to me when I was new there. We even accompanied each other on the Staff Health and Fitness Day and had breakfast together. Sheis such a kind lady.. =]

Looking at my work, i tink i'm doing just fine.. Cant wait for holidays to come though..

Lazy Weekend

Was having a great weekend, by having a lazy Saturday by myself, staying at home, watching heroes up till ep 18. Finally realised that Clare's dad is a good guy and got to know more and more people with unique powers. Still think Clare is the most useful. Save the cheerleader, save the World! On Sunday, popped down to Jurong point for a movie 'SUnshine'. Went in the name of watching Michelle Yeoh kick ass but end up seeing her doing nothing except from crying when seeing the plants burnt up and dying the moment there's finally a close shot of her. She died in a yoga posture, cross legged with hands stretched forward holding on to the precious seedling that survived the fire. How pathetic can this be? A Sci-fi show turned Christian Blasphemy turned horror/alien movie.. Save the sun was just an illusion. Haa.. After that, went to 'surprise' M.J. at his surprise party. When we reached there, we were the ones feeling surprised, that the BBQ has not only his family members and church friends, also his sec sch and jc friends.. He's not even surprised. Where's the element of surprise? We were clapping hands and singing happy birthday song from far far away until we reached him.. Looked like a group dumb dumb.. haa.. But it was fun to see everyone again and talk about what we are doing and stuff.. Had fun telling Khoon about all the shows he watched, cause we watched further le, so jus spoilt his show lor.. haa.. And talked about '1 liter of tears', which i'm watching now, can cry.. was watching it in front of my mum, dare not cry lor.. will be quite weird.. now at ep 7 le.. getting more and more intense, crying more and more buckets.. Treasure people treasure life!


Was at Jurong Point and saw this treadmill competition for women. They had to run on the treadmill for 45min. Winner gets a set of exercising equipments worth $900 while the rest go back with a 'U-zap' thingy.. Imagine gym in a shopping centre.. [a bit like animal lei] =P

When You're Gone

Listening to Avril Lavigne's 'When You're Gone'.. Feels very touchy suddenly.. need someone who can understand me.. Always been putting up a brave and strong front.. None of it feels like me.. Been protecting myself by not expressing too much and being emotionless.. But now this has become part of me.. I will try to be more expressive.. I must..

Received a phonecall from MOE, been accepted by them and given the MOE teaching award, can see the pathway in front of me.. yet again, i don't really have a feeling about it although i tink i felt happy.. i think

The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone could you make it on your own.

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Singing this song to whoever out there.. p/s: i'm not a spirit

Singled Out

Haa.. Yet again, i'm single, i want to be. Life is short. Why limit myself? Why do i have to put up with such theories? I am myself, nothing gonna change much, unless i think it is appropriate.. Better put an end before situation gets sticky, can already foresee problems that are coming. Leave it..

Being single is so much more fun, the anticipation of meeting someone special, no restrictions in doing what you want, loving just thyself to the fullest, enjoying life. =]

Learning

Life is Skill with Experience..

That's what i have learnt today, about practice making perfect.

New way to teach mulitplication timetable, my dear's way
1. Visual (examples with explanation)
2. Table (practising filling up of timestable)
3. Roots (If 1,2 fail, find the root of problem and treat it first)

ASSUME = Once you ASSUME, you've ASS / U / ME.
DESEERTS = DESTRESS

Experience = Expe + rience
Expe can stand for Expectations, Expertise and Extra-ordinary..
rience means a lot.
Therefore, having experience = something special.

The first thing in life we learn is learn to learn.
Problem is people nowadays are refusing to learn.
SO we need 3 things:
1. Learning
2. Delearning
3. Relearning
In order to continue to serve in the workforce with excellence.

Never stop learning.. As long as my dear is willing to teach.
Life skills are meant to be learnt for a lifetime.

Dearest

My past is no longer important, wad is there to talk about? Lets work towards our future.. I miss your hugs dear..

Leave

Mum was pointing out this article to me.. She's actually my grandma's sister, my relative. To think that the unfilial children are pushing her around and treating her badly. I feel that all seniors and elders are to be respected for they are experienced and we have a lot to learn from them. Undeniably, this relative is not someone easy to deal with, don't really like her though, but that does not mean she has to suffer. As children, don't we all love our parents? Especially the one that give birth to you and give everything else to you as well, your mother.. Where are your conscience people? And i so happen to see her daugther ytd, but din manage to talk to her. Thank God that my grandmother is well-loved and taken care of. I want people who i love to be living in happiness. If they are happy, i'll be contented. WIll not try to do anything to hurt them.

100th Post

This is already the 100th post.. Life has changed, time has changed, i'm the same old me, just older.. Haa.. Kidding, time has no power over me now.. I am living in bliss and happiness, embracing the coming of a brand new day, loving the way life is. Life is.. Great.

=P

"Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you'll get" ~ Forest Gump

Was told that i should be thankful to someone who came out of the way that put a stop to what was to happen, to be happier and living better, see things clearer. I totally agree with that. Life's exciting now, because while i keep moving forward, i know more and discover more.. So long, unhappy days.. seems like there's no chance you can come back already.. find someone else ba.. haa =P


Took this photo yesterday, thought that it's quite unique.

Singapore Short Film - The Letter (Raw Cut)

A beautiful story regarding the guy named Chee Chiong and his unforbbiden love, kudos to the makers of this film. Sad story yet it tells us a lot about society.

S20

Met up with William and Chun Yuan.. haa.. din see each other for a long time, we were remembering the goodie old days where we would make fun of WIlliam, him and his happy bottle, him and his vegetable rice everyday.. And talking about what we are doing and what we have been up to.. Learning guzheng sound cool haa..

Meet the Robinsons / Ngs

At first i thought 'Meet the Robinsons' would be a boring show, but i was rather entertained and i would recommend everyone to watch that, not that it has a good rating of 4.5 starts but is because it's not like the Disney production in the past, which are either for pure laughter or just for princesses, for instance 'Cinderella' and 'Snow White'. This movie has got a big theme, that is DO NOT LET THE PAST HOLD YOU BACK n KEEP MOVING FORWARD! This was brought out quite well.. It's not the past that define or mould our future, so we have to move forward and dream big. Just that Louis, who decided not to see his mum when he travelled back in time, it does not matter anymore. Everyone is unique. Was laughing badly when i saw the T-rex and Frankie the frog..


Meet the Robinsons!

After meeting the Robinsons, then i went for a family gathering BBQ to meet the Ngs.. Din know that i have so many extended relatives until today.. Some i have never met in my entire 20years on Earth.. It's that my grandfather has a few brothers, and all of them have at least 4 children ( that's my family) and maximum of 8 children (his brother), and almost children are married with kids.. Just by counting the children that were playing at the playground and those who cant even walk, i tink there's abt 20++ le.. Imagine nearly 100 or more people with the same surname at the BBQ.. I guessed my grandma had been introducing us (the grandchildren) to the aunties and uncles for XX times le.. that who belongs to whose.. haa.. And dad telling people that i'm teaching and they all want to know there is PJc.. We found a nice pit and started our BBQ, to eat.. Haa.. but my aunt wasn't full, she din eat much, so she drove us to MAC!! YAhoo! Dun feel like staying there oso, supposed to be relatives but yet we dun noe each other.. hardly see people of my age.. haa.. But i heard that this is our first ever gathering together, hope to see more of such gatherings, so that we can know more people..


The Ng cousins

Went to Sentosa todae, trying to have a getaway.. Turned out that the place was super crowded.. din get to do what i wanted to.. get a good tan and play the sky luge.. Instead we went to the 4D Magix Show, where i got quite a scare.. When crabs were moving around in the film, i can feel things grabbing my feet, and when the pirate was splashing water, water was sprayed onto me.. like 3 times.. There were lots of laughter and lots of scares too.. For a moment, i could forget my worries..

Bah.. think i should stop here.. getting too emotional..

我怀念的 MV

Pretty much sum up everything.. There are many beginnings waiting for my ending..

Heroes

I'm hooked onto heroes.. there are so many of them with special powers inside.. Nikki/Jessica who possesses super human strength and Claire who has regenerating powers. I tink both of them are freaky.. When i was watching the homecoming ep, i was totally freaked out when Jackie died with her head cut opened by Slyder who merely moved his fingers. That scene was far too long and bloody.. Then there is Hiro who can bend time and travel to the future and past.. cant really control his power, but adds on to the comical effect of the show.. I would like to possess Matt's power to read minds ba, with that you can be most perfect fren one ever had, able to read thots.. but wud be bad to read negative and hurting ones. At least everyone is made truthful in front of you.. If not the power to fly.. ha.. Save my air ticket.. =]

Complaint

Here i am complaining about one day's work.. Today is a long day, spent time in 2 JC1 practical lessons to help them to get a better and more accurate titrations. The students are more lively and 'enjoyable' in that sense, that they will ask questions if in doubts.. But they make quite a lot of mistakes too.. So many of them have to do again because they prepared too much of the standard solution, causing the change in conc.

Worse would be the JC2 remedial.. Especially the 2nd class which is at 4pm. Only one girl came at 4.10pm. At 4.15pm, 2 girls came and saw that only one girl is present. So one of them asked if they can take the Worksheet and leave since they did not bring her notes and materials. I assured her that she doesnt need. She replied ' How u sure?' In my mind is like 'i'm the teacher, obvious that i'm sure right?' So i asked her back ' If you don't want to stay, take the Worksheet and leave then." When she was leaving, she asked if her attendance in this case wud be marked. I said no.. (You don't stay, don't give me respect, still expect me to mark you as present. Crazy! ) Then the other fren give attitude and walk off upon hearing this.

Even if students sleep during lesson i'm not bothered, at least they came.. With students who cant even be bothered to attend, I don't see why you don't deserve the results u are getting.

Yes, Time has changed.
However, People changed more.



A photo of my work table, in the corner of the small office.. Mr Tan is now my best friend, since we eat lunch, talk and discuss together most of the free time. He bought me the mango freezie from the cafe in school. 2nd time he treated me drinks le.. Cool man! Cafe in PJC.. haa..

Nevertheless, he claimed that i looked blur today.. Dunno why lar, seems to be in a daze sometimes.. =P

Thankful

Quite thankful for someone to be there for me most of the time, except times when this someone need to work, and is long hours of work.. Good person, caring person, but not my type, hurts me a bit to tell this person that i only want to be friends and nothing more. Guess friends are what i need more now. Thanks to CK and YM for organising this Sat's outing haa.. Although CK sounded so much more excited.

Saw from Sun Ho's mtv yesterday, i find this quite true..

'Death is easy, it is living on that is diffiicult'.. Wrong of me to think of 'dying'.. =] Music heals the soul and Friends make up the rest of it.

Free Hugs Campaign

Here's Free Hugs Campaign.. An organisation that is formed just by sharing of hugs. After the video, i wished i had a hug too, it's where people can show care for one another, that in this world, there is no discrimination. So, give a hug to people you care for, you love and you wish to bless. Love is such a blessing. =] (wished i had a hug)

Stupidity

A lot of times we would be thinking who is actually telling you the right thing. I guess seeing is believing and not gossiping. However, there is something called foresee, that is to see it coming. And sometimes, i believe i have such a skill. How cool is that huh?

Lab work today was great! Spending time guiding the clueless juniors how to make a solution and then doing titration. Had to keep reminding them to put the apparatus on the table top instead of holding it in the air to check the volume. Wondering how is it ever accurate to measure with your hand moving about..

Zzz.. losing appetite..

Off to Work

Yay, going to school now, helping out in lab work is the most joyous thing to me.. I love doing practicals and so would be happy to guide the juniors.. And today is contact time, so i'm on half day off.. heh.. same as fri timing.. shiok!

Sch..

End the school sickness with going to PJC.. but to teach, very different from teaching Primary School. Back then i battled the noise created by the students, now i fight the silence of the golden mouth.. Had 2 lessons today, the first group of students was completely silent, and not paying attention, except for a few of them. When i asked questions, no one answered or I would say bothered to answer. No motivation to learn i think.. When i called a name from the register, another person came up to do instead of the person i called.. blah.. the lesson felt so long.. I only get to go through 4/5 questions. But for the second group, they came on time and well prepared, asked questions, motivated to learn and responsive. I finished going thru the paper and 9/16 of them handed in. They really make my day.

RTs there not really friendly.. Too bad for me lar, just joined so they already form groups le.. end up i work and hang around with my own teachers and department teachers, hopefully that make me more experienced as well haa..

The truth

Number 23, 10/11, i wished it din happen.
You throw in everything, nothing comes back.

School Sick

Perhaps no one has heard of this before, I'm School Sick.. Sick in the way that i missed schooling life, where you have friends, a focus and loads of wonderful memories. Went back to PJC that day to know what I'm supposed to do and where my table is, felt so weird, a bit uncomfortable in that environment le, think its because i'm no longer a student there. And teaching students that are around 2 years younger than me, with that almost negligible content left in my brain, i'm pretty much useless there.. Well tomorrow is my first day at work, hope for the best =]

Interview with a Vamp!

Nah.. not another interview.. Had been going for quite a few interviews, whether if it is for jobs or scholarship. Today's one i don't know if i scored or failed. Weird, i just kept blabbering about my true thoughts regarding my stay in Woodgrove. Bombarded with many questions and at most of the questions, i used my own lousy English. =D

Any problems you encountered during your stay in Woodgrove?

(1) Students too noisy at times, may feel a bit helpless because my voice is drowned.. Solution to get them in the mood, either to listen attentively or discussion.
(2) A student named S tried to cut her wrist.. I blah...blah.. the form teacher blah blah.... attention seeker.. blahh.. she freaked me out and she has B.O.. (last part i kept it to myself)

If the principal challanged you to teach a technical class from sec 2, make sure they are well-behaved and produce good results at the end of the year, what would you do? What if they don't do well?

(1) Make sure i know them darn (save the darn) well, because that will make them feel important and has a sense of belonging that the teacher is making effort to know them. So that when they raise hands, i don't say 'you' and 'you' but by their names i call them.
(2) Instill discipline and emphasize on class rules. Always reward and praise the ones doing good and well to inspire the others to work hard in a competitve environment.
(3) Hold small group revision programme for weaker students by topics. The time is worth.
(4) There's a limit to what the teachers can do, so have to make sure the students are motivated to excel. Make learning interesting.

People like to try all the jobs and travel around the worlds and take teaching as last resort, but you are doing teaching first, are you going to travel around the worlds after a while then?

(1) I guess the passion and determination will bring me thru, its the students and satisfaction that motivates me.
(2) So that is why i would take this job.

What if you see your friends successful with money and nice cars blah.. living Paris Hilton lifestyle (they din say this) and you are stuck in this job?

(1) Be successful is not about living a luxurious lifestyle, its about setting your own goals and achieving them. That is what i call success.
(2) Even if you have a lot of money and living well off, you are not successful because you don't get satsifaction and happiness.

What are your plans if you do not get this scholarship? ( This has better not be a hint )

(1) I will still be majoring in chem and mInoring in Maths
(2) I will still go into NIE

Roughly like this, had never talked so much in this few weeks..

Chemistry

Just completed Redox tutorial, still can do but used quite a long time.. Needed to digest and recall the equations. Looked at the test papers i did in the past, wondering how did I ever managed to get past the A levels. Comparing now and the past, i see such a great difference. Now i don't really remember much information and details.. Empty headed i guess.. Hopefully after the relief teaching spent in PJC, i'll improve and get back to my initial standard. =] Mugging rox. I miss school.

Right oN

Was with Benji ytd.. Stayover at his house.. Were talking about him being a bastard when he initiated break-up after 2 weeks in a relationship.. Had to be much like a jerk so that the other party will not harbour any hopes about any chances.. But i thought that is a bit heartless though.. Also talked about people who can hide their feelings well and those who cannot express their feelings. The formal has a little advantage over the latter. So much for putting up a strong front.. i think i belong to both categories.

Interview is tomorrow.. Having a little cold feet although its not the first time.. Jia You! =]

It just feels stupid when you have high hopes for things to happen you know they will never. A pack of lies. I was a willing fool to believe in it. And it leads to this.. Bye. I am dead.

Worried

Wasn't feeling good today ( when do i ever feel good since that night? ), went out of the house leaving my sister and her friend alone in it, wasn't feeling very safe about that though.. to meet my mum to buy DVD portable.. Met at IMM, big place with very little shoppers, boring and boring.. After walking about for 1hr, we decided to take a cab down to ShengShiong to see more.. Unluckily took the cab at 5pm sharp.. extra 2 bucks.. not worth it.. Finally bought the player after another 45min, and she kept pressing me to choose what to eat out of so little choices, she din know that i hate to choose, reason being i hate the feeling of choosing the wrong things.. i would be angry with myself if i make a mistake.. So i told her i dun want anything and so we end up eating from the food court near our house..

Hope my sister is not like me..

bleahx

In another downest moments.. nothing's good.. woke up with a heavy head, falling sick.. or in fact i'm sick.. dunno what i'm doing.. go play mahjong and lost $110, although not my money.. think my skills are really bad.. just feel that i'm living in a surreal world.. saw a baby girl, becomes to my childhood playmate, she is like 18-19 like that and is already a mother. At first i was quite disgusted by the baby because she looked exactly like her mum and her mum's brother and her grandma.. All look the same one.. and her grandma is like my mother's age.. dotx.. my auntie was asking me to bring girlfriend to let everyone see if i have.. Can feel the pressure liao.. bet next year chinese new year must run.. But i want children haa.. so adorable.. was teaching my cousin how to do his maths.. fun..

to sum it up.. shitty..

HappY 21st biRthDay

3rd person this year is my class' prom king 21st birthday.. not a spectecular one but was a meaningful one, that i managed to see all my long lost jc classmates, at least talked a bit about what we're doing and our future plans. It felt so good to know that you've not lost them totally.. Were discussing abt birthday celebrations and realised that all the gimmicks have been used.. From chalets, settlers' cafe, home catered and buffet.. blah.. all used.. I was crapping that i just want to go to somewhere i like (yes, its australia!!) with my loved one ( however seems almost impossible le )..

No matter how i tried to fill myself up, the glass is still not full.. because there's already a crack on the glass..

Red Bean

Just something about myself.. I like to eat anything with red beans, especially japanese red bean. Remember once when i was in secondary 4, i wanted to have red bean soup for dinner (not really a rice person unless its flavoured). So i went to the dessert stall near my house (not there anymore, read more to know why) to get the soup. I realised that when i was given the soup it was taken out from nowhere. Nevertheless i bought it.. When i was drinking it at home, i realise that it was a little sour.. Yucks.. its spoilt.. threw it after after taken a few mouthfuls.. Don't dare to buy from dessert stall already..

Long awaited

Just talked to MR Tan, PJC here i come.. but only like next next week.. would be quite free.. need to find entertainment for the time being.. Yawnz..

Take a look

Taking a look at what have been happening.. A campfire at Saribum Camp, some weird place where i will never know how to get there.. Long time since i went for a campfire, love those days at OBS.. singing those happy campfire songs, having great adventures like rock climbing, jetty jumps and canoeing.. Also celebrated Zhi En's and Chin Keat's birthdays. For the formal one, we went to his house for a buffet dinner and it was a good chance for us to meet up and chit chat.. JS, Billy and I ended up the last guests leaving because we were slacking too much in the room, but it was a great time spent together. How i wish i have a birthday celebration like that, where i can invite my relatives and my dear friends over for a small gathering.. Its 21!! For the latter guy, its a small dinner at NYDC, enjoying good food and having small talks. Went for a bowling game after that, been quite a while since i bowled, glad that it was still not bad..Still can remembering years ago, during one of my birthdays.. dunno if it is sec 1 or sec 2.. my family and relatives, went for a bowling game late night after the celebration.. On one of my throws, not only the bowling ball went into the lane, i slipped and fell with it into the lane.. the lane is oily and that is why i went like a third of the lane.. That was so embarrassing.. and i cried very badly after that.. Din really touch bowling until last year.. lol..

Pretence

Sickness attacks when you are healthy and strong. It doesn't hurt much. But when relapses come, it attack you when you are recovering and weak, it kills and destroys you.

Ugly Fudgy Betty

Watching the 1st Eps of Ugly Betty, a typical simple character trying to work in the classy environment. She doesn't seems to fit in the magazine firm but is willing to do anything to stay in work. At least she is someone who is impartial and dares to do things she think is right. I was quite upset when she was humiliated as she was asked to cover a model during a photo shoot, where she wears a tight leathery outfit. Good people always have to go through such misery.. =[ Anyways, i love those blue eyes.. hao mi ren wor..

假裝

呼吸著一種孤獨的味道
心跳在你沉默以後慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑　反正你看不到
我要的幸福　遺落在你懷抱
當愛失了焦　那些最初的美好
早被妳擱在一角
街上擁擠人潮　走著看著都是摧眠符號
記憶停不了　穿過讀你的心跳
穿過想你的味道　我只想不被打擾

假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒
去相信你的擁抱　一直會讓我依靠
繼續等待　心甘情願不想逃
假裝多好　依然是　依然是　曖昧的tone調
一個人無理取鬧　兩人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己設下的圈套

像是駝鳥　相信時間是唯一解藥
視而不見　傻到了無可救藥
其實早明瞭　你的愛已隨風飄
想要找　再也找不到

Was watching the mtv of Jolin's 假裝.. A story about a relationship that ends terribly and they still have to ignore one another and pretend they did not see one another at all when they meet.. Although one party is still clinging on to the love, the other wants freedom and wanting that is not betrayal. Ending of the story.. doesn't matter..

whAt's wRong?

I think i'm fine.. I just dunno what i want.. Now that the reason why i chose this path is completely gone, i dunno what's next for me.. Choices, yes there are.. people who expressed interest in knowing me, or some just know me too much that they are just waiting for me to change the path into theirs.. I'm dumped into the same section called 'unwanted'. I guess life's like this, when things are really gone, you hope that it didn't happen and regret and remorse over it. Just like i thought people around me aren't supposed to grow old and die.. Naive and childish isn't it? Sometimes I just dun want to be myself for a while to laugh at myself for being pathetic..

Seems like Gram is sick and his age is showing up.. Heard that there are murmurs from his heartbeat.. Canfeel how it will hurt us if anything happen to him.. He's part of our famly..

Bleahx.. Hope Life just gets better =]

孙燕姿 - 逆光

Amount of money cheated: US$10,000
No. of days she went headlines: 3 Days
No. of days Capitol went headlines: 1 week
No. of times Mr Sng spoke: 1
Watching Sun Yan Zi running towards the pyramid singing this superb song: Priceless

Kudos to Sun Yan Zi.. This music video is awesome..

De jAvu

Been there done that.. Life should be better.. But suddenly i think i have made a U-turn back to where I started.. Even when i thot its all over.. Wadever.. I am full of hope..

Dunno if i should start driving again..

Uncertain of my new job.. Are they calling me yet?

Interview with MOE.. how to prepare..

I wish, time goes back to after BMT, love those times.. life was much simpler then..

3 months

3 months is not too long, not too short.. Enough for a relationship to bloom and die off, enough time for a school term, and enough time to learn something new.. Will i be able to wait for another 3 months? Hopefully i can wait till the end of May.. Hee.. Cant wait for this new change.. Should be exciting..

Yesterday, I just suddenly feel like cooking lunch so i went off to buy some groceries after a run..



Had prawn pasta with mushroom cream sauce and a glass of orange juice. =]

Hi-i~!

Yesterday was a fruitful day i believe.. I taught tuition, went over to Zhi en's house to help him and CK to do some videoing and had some not so bad food at Ghim Moh.. Time passed really quickly that i din even noticed that i've spent half a day at his place.

The end product, i find it amusing and interesting.. Maybe because i know them then i would find it this way.. Maybe when the 'judges' are looking at it, they might be thinking 'what the heck'.. Haa.. But i like it anyway..

Went JB with ber for a shopping trip getaway... Seems like this is my only day out for a holiday.. sounds pathetic but thats very true.. Watched 'Charlotte's Web' thinking that its a heartwarming and touching show, teaching us to learn to act out of love, kindness and not be selfish towards people around us. And that promises are to be kept, even when you have to sacrifice.. Admire that friendship between Wilbur and Charlotte. Hee.. And i bought myself some clothes and received something as a gift.. Was at Causeway Point and decided to make a call to Daryl's Mum since she emailed me her number. And she and Daryl got something for me.. So grateful and happy when i see them.. Hee.. They got me a shirt and a handphone accessory with my name, plus a thank you card.. Feel darn good when students are doing well and they are appreciative of what you have done for them.. =]

Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend

Cool! Avril Lavigne rocks again with this new song.. Get rid of your girlfriend and take me is the attitude of this song.

Supercar - Be [PV]

A bloody yet amusing video about kicking balls =]

unbelievable

do not write or sign anything without thinking, especially in the army.. Just received a call from 40, the RQMS Warrent Ang asked me to pay up for the handset which i lost last year in India. I wrote the statements even when i did not lose it. And it has been 1 year, that he finally received the statements and the case is already closed, and he called me to pay up $15 for paying a part of the handset price. Darn! I wrote that because master chan was so irritating! i was quite scared of him oso at that time.. Now i see $15 flying away even when i want to start scrimping and saving.. Dotx..

ended

My duty @ Woodgrove Primary has ended.. Some part of me tells me to go and leave at a small achievement that i have, leaving at a high note.. But some part of me tells me to stay on and work there, since i have enjoyed myself each and every day when i was there. It was really a wonderful experience with 3E.. i cant bear to part.. So do some of my students.. especially when i was told that daryl cried when he told his mother that i was leaving.. din noe that i wud make such an impact on these kids.. Facts are still facts.. I have to leave either the class or the school. So i have decided to leave the school.

Meet the Parents session

It was both winnie and my first time addressing parents in the school.. Especially me who is not a trained but relief teacher. So she has prepared some slides and will talk regarding their CA1 performances and also what we have been doing for the past 3 months with the children. When English had been covered by Winnie, she passed the talking to me for math, so i gladly took over and was getting a bit of scared when talking to adults, as in people who are more senior than me (hey they have kids already!) The feeling is worse than an interview. So i started with math and going thru the points in the slides frantically. Meanwhile, a parent who was leaving asked Winnie for a few minutes.. So i was left alone with the class of parents.. So when i was done with math, i was like 'Oh shit', wad am i supposed to Do? =X The 'clever' me thinks that the best way was to continue to Science and basically talk cock throughout for that.. and thank god, she came back when i was at the last pointer in the Science slide and managed to elaborate from the that point back to the first point.. How ma lu it was..

After the terrible start, we went on to the QnA where parents can bombard and drown us with their questions.. I was rather pleased that some of them talked to me regarding my teachings.. They commented that i was quite good at teaching math and their children can even explain how the models are drawn clearly and how it helped to solve the question. The compliments really make me feel more motivated to mould young lives, realising that all that i have done, all the expectations, all the late nights, all the frustrations were all worthwhile. Apart from fun and fulfillment, there was friendship too. Arrgh.. love my job and students so much.. =]

where did the $$ go?

Feel like i've grown up, first time buying something so expensive without parents' permission and all were from my own pocket. I earned it from relief teaching. All the $$ went into it.. My new All-in-1 printer and my new MACbook.. Shiok! Was wo-ahing and wowing when the printer was printing some worksheets for my tuition kid. Now i have to wait for the MACbook to complete charging and i'll be all set to explore it. Cant wait to set my hands on it.. It is so.. white and beautiful..

And due to the big hole in the account, i gonna scrimp and save again for the next.. dunno how long lar.. just gonna be a bit more careful with my money from tomorrow onwards.. Haiz.. wonder when i am going on a holiday or wad.. still need some sort of relaxation though..

dunno where am i

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-dqmSdivQVw

nEw hope

life isn't always smooth and steady.. but somehow i found a new direction of life.. to love and pamper myself much much more.. and also getting to know more friends.. Not just friends, but good relationships. =D

Now that i'm a bit treated like dirt, i should have woke up earlier.. although i was once helpless and still feel alone sometimes.. at least now its not most of the time le..

New plans new directions..

- Might now want to start new work so soon.. Want to tour first.
- Weight loss session starts.
- Enjoy myself while I can before Uni life comes in.

...:SAGITTARIUS:. The Sexy one *

Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships.
The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet.
Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet!
Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna with you might end up crying.

Make me sound so amazing.. But then of course, i was the one who ended up crying.

1.42am

So late.. teary and lonely.. thinking of u..
thought i have moved on.. still happily tell people that i'm perfectly ok..
But it just comes.. How come time cant go back to 10/11?
That first impression, that flow of love and passion?
Arghh..

Well then

If i'm not ok, doesn't mean you'll take me back or change anything. Shldn't talk to you at all since i'm still so unsettled.. People say i look sad when i thought the cover-up was good. Finally realise the true meaning of the song 'Ting bu dao'.. still miss u..

gathering happiness from other aspects.. working well till now but how long does it last?

...

remember blogging that i dun wan to blog anymore.. but sadly no one is there to take my woes. I feel so lonely now.. hoping no one will see this anyway..

I've been good.. i know i have.. i put in all my love, care and concern and that nothing else is more important, i am loyal, nothing could have gone wrong.. now i start to think whether i kanna rebound again.. but why is this happening to me? i feel so innocent.. there's a lot left untouched, left undone, left stranded..

u know i'll be upset.. so why must u do this to me? just screamed at my sis.. i'm losing myself as well, my life is screwed, messed, think nothing worse can happen.. no one care.. rejected and dejected..

everything u said have becomes your lies.. can we just forget abt everything and start again? will u take me back? i cant take it.. pretending that i'm alright when i see people although i'm not.. i'm strong, remember.. got to take up the burden of the only son and stuff.. but i'm really weak.. deep inside, i'm nothing.. i'm really not strong enough to fight this..

think i lost interest in everything else.. can just sit and rot and die.. cant sleep.. time comes i need to call.. really hate myself for being so alike to jac..

i hate myself.. why din i learn how to say what i feel.. why do i always keep quiet and let things happen?

i miss u.. i really do.. dun think u'll feel the same.. haiz.. my happiness is short-lived and my misery has just started.. i cant take it, can u take me back? although i sound cheap.. but just let me continuing loving u pls.. arrgghh..

found that i got stuck at a corner, end of me..

End of blog

Hurt too deep, never gonna heal..

No more blogging for me.. nothing is ever real and ever lasting..

i'm a loner.. leave me alone..

Pretence..

I remember one line from the movie 向左走向右走 that was said like this, " I am just like a person without the shadow on the ground, so lonely."

Never felt that close to that before. Devastated.

Time will tell.

Stranded

I feel terrible.. Came so far, fell so deep.. worthless/priceless.. i sux

i think so too..

sometimes things are better explained without saying anything. i get it, i seriously do and is quite guilty about it towards someone else. call this retribution or what have you, thats nothing much i can do anyway.

think: things work when u need 2 hands to clap, what happen when 1 hand is willing while the other hand dun even know where it is? kill me..

i dunno.. a taste of what is torture, cant find a better person than me.. finally found a reason why kino is earning my money.. sigh..

Come clean?

Like what 'Desperate Housewives' mean, its time to clean the dirty laundry - to get some things done. Shoo~~ comes a New Year and then Shoo~~ goes the V-day and then Shoo~~ comes the Chinese New Year.. Time is passing so quickly that I hardly had a chance to catch some memories into this hollow space.

I love my dear dear, who has been complaining why i does not mention anything.. Well, we are fine.. fine to the point where someone has gotten a bit too used to me not being around, feeling rather insecure at times.. But i din noe this was vice versa that I kept saying that I don't mind that someone snatch my dear dear away.. But seriously, i care okie.. Just that my way of facing it is to fake a front that i dun care.. but its just the works of jealousy, and i really dun like the mentioning of people you know.. its not something i can help with.. especially when i dun learn thai.. and i'm not schooling yet..

How long can i move on like this?

Mum: I heard that in any church, they would take 10% of what you earn every month.
Me: Ya, but you can choose to give or not to give. No one is forced.
Mum: So did you?
Me (Walking away): No.
Mum (Voice becoming distant): Told you not to believe so much already, and you still go every week, so ON for what?

I lied. So, how long can i move on like this?
I seriously wonder.

The change starts here..

Since the beginning of this year.. i sensed the difference in me.. i tend to get a bit less responsible and a bit more reliant on some things.. Still the main thing is that i grew, mentally.. accepting the harsh facts and cruel reality.. Things are no longer like fairy tales.. That's y i am so envious of my students for being so young with unlimited possibilities and endless wonders not yet explored.. Old.. thats how i feel haa.. oh well.. getting old, wise up a bit, get used to life or try getting used to life.. giving up on some things.. blah.. i talk crap..

the change has began, i know..

Lack.. Gain..

I lack of sleep.. seriously.. and my biological clock rings when its 7.30am.. meaning that i only sleep roughly 4-5 hr a day.. not enough~ Thinking of stopping tuition for the K2 student i'm teaching, to cut myself some slack from so much work.. Also thinking of not teaching music, kinda dumb since i don't really know music..

Yeah.. although i don't know how to take care of myself, i'm not getting sick or anything just tired.. Or maybe i don't have enough rest and food, especially dinner.. dotx.. Really surprised and overjoyed to have a nice supper after a HARD day's work.. Gan dong..~~~ Bleahx..

Good morning Mr Ng~

Had a powerpacked day ytd and its only the first day! kinda shocking because i only knew what to teach and a lot of other stuff on the day i report.. the class is huge~ 58 students arent easy to handle especially when they lose concentration easily.. There are some that distract the others.. Some interesting conversations i had with them...

Pupil 1 : Mr Ng, he say that i purposely throw his pencil box on the floor!
Pupil 2: No i didnt [ about to cry]
Pupil 1: That who says he saide that i purposely throw one..
Pupil 2: No Mr Ng [ Tears coming out..]
Me: Whether right or wrong, both of you are in the same class and should make friends with one another.. So both of you, i want you to shake hands and say sorry. Do not point fingers at one another. [ I thought i sound stupid]

Pupil 3: Teacher i brought money, can i buy my book later during recess? [ kids are still kids]

And after this tiring day in school, i had to teach tuition at 8pm.. A bright but playful boy who is very active.. He kept running in and out of his room and talking a lot of funny senseless stuff with me.. Dunno how much i can help him but i find it enjoyable teaching him.

Me.. A teacher? I'll see about that..

Year 2007

A new year began without a sign
All i can do is look back and sigh..

What have i done for the past year
Mistakes shall not repeat in this year..

Change myself to be a better one
Happiness is all i want..

Short term goals
1. New set of Ear-phone
2. A Good Laptop
3. If possible, new furnitures and oven.
4. New year shopping in Malaysia

Long term goals
1. Lose weight till 60kg, staying healthy
2. Go back to baking and brush up my skills.
3. Change my wardrobe.
4. Finish paying my tithes and building funds on time.
5. Be a more loving person and meet up more with my friends and relatives.

Hope i can be happier~

Good morning Class

Guess that will be what i'll be saying for the next 3 months, at least.. Needless to say, its my new job at Woodgrove Primary as a teacher. Sounds weird when people address me as Mr Ng though, gives me sort of a formal feel. I finally grew up.. Yeah.. few years ago i was sitting in the seat in class, learning and absorbing what the teacher has to offer.. or maybe even cursing and gossiping about the teacher. But now i'm one of them now.. Truly its a funny feeling..

Really want to thank God for giving me this job as a very nice NEW YEAR present.. hee.. Some time ago, i was actually angry with God for being nasty to me that He gives me things and then take them away.. first it was the TCC job + my fone lost on malacca trip and later a teaching job in Dunearn.. But now it all work out fine that made me believe that all things work for good for people who love God.. I got a job right on and starting work the very tomoro 04/01/07!!

bored

i'm bored real bored..

Fortunately i have friends.. to spend time with.. hee.. going Lot 1 now.. kinda feel that i forced someone there.. hope that its not that demanding or wad.. although i tink a bit.. =]

Eat to heart's content

Red bean and cream corn ice dessert w Durian topping

Mushroom swiss double
onion rings
french fries
chicken tender
coke light

hong kong char siew bo lo pao
pork chop and brinjal rice w shanghai sauce
mince meat cheese baked rice
peanut butter french toast
hong kong milk tea w grass jelly

yum yum..

Getting on with life

How weird can that be? We were all young before, been to primary schools, secondary schools and junior colleges, almost done with serving the nation, now what? Surprised that now i'm stepping out into the 'world' as an adult, a working adult and also an undergraduate. All my classmates/ bunkmates/ church friends are doing the same as well, but seems like the transition is kind of great to me. Stepping out into the unknowns where you now really rule your own life without the clutches of army laws and school rules. Wow! How fun is that?

Read ym blog about his contented life and how much he loves his job.. hope i'll be like that too, not only doing a good job, but to learn lessons and gain experiences on life, minus the bitching part.. hee.. Jia you!

Here I go Again

There's always a time for reflection for anyone and for any cause. Just read Ckblah's summary on how glad he is with what he has now and being contented with stable relationships, good friends, a job and sufficient rest time. I yearn for that too and perhaps, I have neglected them for quite some time. I haven't been visiting my grandma, feeling kind of guilty although the previous time I went Malacca I bought her pineapple tarts and Chestnut Biscuits. Maybe someday this month I should pop down and visit or ask my grandma and aunt and cousins out for dinner to celebrate my parents and my birthday on 15th or 16th.. hee..

I'm contented too, with a secured relief teaching job and also 2 tuitions on the way, seems like its gonna be quite busy for me next year but i'm not afraid, I believe that I can still make time for myself, taking this chance to improve on my weaknesses, turning them into my strengths, by the grace of God.

I'm gay, No.. I'm happy with my relationship and friendships. Found real happiness in every day's life is really like counting my blessings one by one. Life's never a bed of roses or not everyday is Sunday but guess I've lived everyday like a Sunday and made myself a bed of roses, being grateful and living each day a fulfilling and fantastic day. I will continue to stay faithful and treasure what that I've now. Will not let go unless people give up on me.

Well, I've been struggling with thoughts in my mind for the past weeks and i'm sure that I came up with my final decision on how the game is played. What the future holds, I don't really have an idea. But at least I like it now, this way, this pattern. Cheers!

Praise God!

Definitely need to thank God for this opportunity to step back into my graduated secondary school to teach. I can't imagine that yet but it is for real! I'm not going back to school to study or to visit my teachers, but to be their colleagues and to teach! Not just that, I'm teaching English for Secondary 2 and English Literature for Secondary 1. Wow! Now that I can earn money and also brush up on my English language before I step into University life. Thank God for this brilliant idea!

Not only this, I got blessed with 2 tuition cases this week, teaching a K2 kid Primary 1 subjects and also a Secondary 3 Physics and Chemistry. This is what I called blessed blessings~! I faithfully give onto God and God has blessed me back with so much more.. Hee.. Thank God!

Japanese Dessert's Food Fight

Ate at Ajisen @ IMM.. they have this new dessert selections similar to MOF at a lower price. Ate this special Macha Soft Serve with Seaweed Extract Jelly and Fruits with Red Bean Paste.. Taste really good when sweet dark sauce is drizzled over the green tea ice cream.. Red bean paste is not too sweet and delicious.. With mandarin oranges and peaches on the side. Main highlight is the Seaweed Extract Jelly that is said to be a dieting superior food.. Taste like normal agar agar with no sugar and dissolve more easily in the mouth.. The dessert also comes with mochi rolled in green tea powder.. Oiishii ne!

Back

having a super bad feeling over something.. dunno why..

had prayer meeting today.. haven't had such breakthrough praying for a long time. It was enjoyable to be in the presence of the LORD, praying in the spirit. After that was a fun time at Changi Airport where the group of us had our late lunch after the exhausting prayer meeting.. Then we popped down to Bras Basah only for a slice of Oreo Cheese Cake that is more creamy and fluffy than Cheesy and Oreoy, and tasted more like a lemon Cheese Cake.. Lol..

To my surprise which i dunno why, i'm into N162.. Pretty happy with the change actually that i'm back again.. but how abt sean and raymond.. hmmm.. i dunno.. hee..

Pic taken @ TCC on the night the multiplication news was announced.. Really feel that our friendship strengthened so much more after this separation that we grew to appreciate and treasure each other so much more.. Hope that we can continue to serve the LORD well and stay close with one another no matter where we are.. Let's trust GOD to bless this unique relationship between us..

Got to go

It has been almost a year since i've spent time in N162, my cell group. Was rather shocked to receive news in such short notifications that i am required to be transferred to another cell group by this weekend. Not that this is unexpected, but it happened too suddenly that i cant handle emotionally and mentally.

I love N162 a lot, some place i would be proud to be in. Whenever i invite friends for service, i will definitely introduce my cell group to them. This gives me a sense of belonging and also gives me something to communicate with my friends, knowing one another more. Remember being appointed the refreshment I/C soon after joining the cell group, tried making a lot of different food using eggs, bread and other ingredients. Something worth mentioning was the peanut butter french toast and fried rice, which were my first tries and i receive positive comments. They always encourage me when i make brownies, cookies or cakes, giving me advices and tips to make them better. I am grateful for them being so appreciative and that spurs me on for creating more delights.

It is only through this cell group that i finally open up myself, into confessing more of my problems and talking more with other people. I also learn to care and share with one another. It really edifies me a lot to love and understand people more.

Only recently, i've been told to be a helper to consolidate attendence for the people in my group and i volunteered to make the song sheet for the cell group. It might be tough and i often get stressed and depressed over it, i still managed to get them done and ensure that cell group meeting proceeds smoothly.

Just want to thank the CG for being so fun-loving and friendly.. My Jie mei = Raymond and Charlotte.. Leonard and Zihao for being such good brothers, Raymond filling me with lots of information on road directories, Jie Lin and Annie for giving advices and encouragements, and rest for being good company in the CG..

Gotta go.. Take Care..

Reflections

Been listening to queercast recently.. Talking about stepping out and coming out of the closet, it's not easy and requires a lot of courage.. I applause and salute people who are doing so, not just living life with a mask on, denying reality like it's a great sin and crime. Be cool and open about it..

Who has we to blame actually? Society? Or the people around us? More likely to be the people around us.. Afraid that they would persecute you and out you straight away, leaving you more depressed before the confession.. It hurts you and your loved ones, making things look awkward.. Its like, all the while you are fine and okay, till this piece of news break out of nowhere.. especially when lots of things are expected from you, respectable and highly looked upon on.. Although its sad, its the true cold fact.. Undeniably, i'm part of the people in disguise and disgust.. First few confesses are hard but certainly, as time goes by it shall be simplified in alot of ways..

Where am i??

***You Belong in Australia***


Ace!
Sunny, upbeat, and cute
You make the perfect surf bum
Now stop hogging the vegemite!


What English Speaking Country Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatenglishspeakingcountryareyouquiz/

This is so darn right!! Yep, i'm an Aussie!

Foolish things

Did some foolish things for the past week that even i have to laugh about it..

1) Hopping onto a bus hoping that it would bring me to where i want to go..
2) Roaming the streets of Orchard looking for food meant for the king!
3) Sinking my teeth into sinful delights
4) Eating so much pineapple tarts at night despite a severe sore throat.. [ Great! jus saw the doc cause it hurt too much.. ]
5) Losing a hp on the bus after taking a foto of a donut..

Wonderful Sunday

Time to blog about last weekend.. Gain a lb before book in on Thursday night.. Had COS duty and Guard duty simultaneously on Fri and Sat.. Very tired after that, but still, i went to church for Sunday service. Kinda surprised that i actually have 2 friends with me for service.. Cause i din really ask them but they approached me.. hee.. Really thank God for that.. especially when Stephen came and gave his heart to Jesus Christ.. glad that he actually came.. yeah.. now he can join me for service as well.. Praise God!

Here's some photos that were taken along the trip in KL/Malacca..

Back From M'sia

Could have been a wonderful and victorious trip haa.. except for the mishap that i had on way to Malacca.. Left my precious N70 on the coach and forgot all about it.. Coincidentally or bad omen is that i took a photo of a donut named 'happy' before i lost it.. and soon i become unhappy, brooding over the loss of my precious.. Not the value, but of its contents, messages and blah blah.. Love the fone alot actually.. But haiz.. after spending so much time (half an afternn) and money (Rm50 for taxi fare to the bus service workshop), and still it could not be found.. Ya its the careless me, as usual, got scolded by my mum and dad for that.. Things arent going smoothly somehow.. Feel down easily but till, there's lots of things to do and i seriously think i deserve another break again.. haa.. Cameron highlands?? hmm.. considering though..

Gotta go for dinner.. blog another time.. hee..

Happy Sin

Its just chocolates and sweets, filled with love, that really brighten up my day.. love it.. Though it is sinful and unhealthy, i shall not share with anyone else except..

It's the little things that people do that show that they care and love us, therefore we must be more appreciative towards the things that people do for us, specially for us.. Never take things for granted..

Yay!! Something amazing happened this morning.. All thanks to God.. At first i only have a friend, which is Jin Yao for service and i was really grateful le.. But this morning i received sms from ym that he has got a friend too.. somehow my heart got stirred and i sms another 2 friends.. Wei Kuan and Yuci.. And WK agreed to come too.. Thank God.. Yuci cant make it, but he agreed to come for Christmas.. Not only that, i already booked quite a lot of people for Christmas, looks like the love of God is really spreading, through us as well!

Desperatoir Ep01

Desperate Housewives - despite of its bitchy, juicy and sabotage set and characters entertaining teeveetians like us, i find that the show has shown women in a different perspectives. They do things to achieve what they want. That's for sure. Whether if it is the hint or the obvious loud way. Not that i disapprove of that and i don't really hold the rights anyway, its that i can actually relate to one or two of the characters in the show..

Lynette Scavo

A typical housewife who place her husband and her children before her, and would use every ways, whether up above or down under, just to make sure that she has got the best solutions, at least to her, for people she love and care for.. She is usually 'democratic' but she thinks a lot, much more further than the situation itself, and when she cant bottom it anymore, it will be released like a storm.. She is strong, filled with burdens, yet living life as it goes and not complaining. She needs a break that would never come, from her work and housework.. She got her dreams and desires but could not be fulfilled, these are the sacrifices she has to make for her family. Life's never easy for her but she wun throw in the towel.. FIGHT on's her attitude to life..

Time..

Been wanting to make this entry yesterday but was interrupted by the lag in the browser and also the need to help mum add many new songs into her new mp4 player.. She took me more than an hour to add in just the female singers' songs..

7 Days is only a week.. But the last 7 Days has been special to me.. It has been the happy and fulfilling time for me.. Really contented with what i've got.. It doesn't seem like 7 Days and i don't feel like time is dragging or what..

This song has been playing on my playlist for a long long time.. Meaningful to me at least.. hee..

可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃

Current Status

if i'm getting a sore throat tomoro, it's definitely someone's fault for giving me so much nuts to eat.. Eat so much nuts at one go, and gosh, it was exciting trying to 'tui huo' when i got too much of it..

haa.. It was funny figuring and guessing what color was the fruitip pastille before eating.. Way to solve the problem --> eat it please.. however the blackcurrant taste a bit orange.. so weird but sweet..

Enuff with food ba.. gonna nurse my throat tomoro i guess.. need more water but not sparkling drink hee.. there are things i don't do because i usually don't do it.. but i'll try however as long as it promises positive results and returns =P..

Cant wait to settle on my schedule this weekend, someone gonna bring me out~ gee

We're in this together

Time passed thru fast these few days.. Especially my COS duty that ended so soon without me feeling that time is dragging.. Getting to know the other COSes [and also people left in coy line.. we are known as the leftovers.. heh] and working together, talking about what we want to do in the future.. what future holds i dunno.. trying to be positive about it.. or i have always been optimistic lar.. looks good to me anyway.. haa..

Actually in quite a good mood recently.. hmm.. Watch the buffy musicial @ youtube.com, the songs are nice! Found a new way of drinking water and fruitips have never tasted so good before.. haa

Crossroad

Affirmation.. what the heck.. i'm really confused.. sometimes things in life arent just right or wrong, black or white.. hence the existence of partially and grey areas. Me, for instance, is stuck in the moment.. need some time to think it over, it's complicating anyway.. and in many ways.. haa.. i am one lame screwed up..

whateva.. really looking forward to the malaysia trip, been waiting for a time to relax and have fun overseas and india doesnt count.. and i really count my blessings and want to treasure what i have in my life.. especially friends and family.. haiz.. thank god for being with me even at my downest moments.. i will be honest and faithful.. thank god for the blessings even before i pledge and i'm definitely waiting on God to pour down his blessings forever and ever.!~

Back on track

Been a long time ever since i last blogged.. a lot of things happen and yet i was unable to take control of all of them and be a part in some of them.. Haa.. here's the list..

1. I fired my dear driving instructor for entrusting so much errands such as driving him to the repair shop, coffee shop and toilet breaks. Wondering how come no coffin shop?

2. Movie galore: the prestige - movie with scarlett as a big vase, black dahlia - another movie with scarlett as a big vase that moves, think Hilary Swank did better in the movie. Death note - A great manga turned movie only to realise that light isn't as dashing as the manga's and L is really laid back and cool!

3. Realising that God is always faithful and working in mystery.

4. I'm on leave most of the time and spending little chalet holidays in camp once in a while.. Kinda exciting as well.. ORD mood is lingering in the air..

5. Found a job as a TCC service crew.. gaining experience a bit late but nevertheless, a cuppa is always heartwarming and flavorful.. and also as an bookseller assistant at Westgrove

6. Going KL twice in Nov/Dec.. Cool and tiring i dare say, not forgetting Wei Quan's proposal of going Bangkok.. still thinking through..

Manhood

What a subject to touch on?! I've decided to take a big step of faith.. Trust God that He would bless me many many folds as I serve and give faithfully to the kingdom of God..

Without planning, I plan to fail.. Decided to go according to some sort of pattern, to save myself from getting wasted; wasting time, i.e wasting my life and spoiling myself.. That needs lots of determination and discipline.. I know that.. God will pull me thru'.. Yea.

It's such a bad idea to sneak for a late night movie.. Although the show was definitely exciting and intriguing.. But i don't feel good.. I really don't.. Haiz.. what has been done cannot be undone.. I better start working on how to save it.. PLANs.. and SoluTionS!

Miracles

Some things are definitely unbelieveable.. an relationship can turn sour anytime, the table can turn around.. Things made good can go bad.. Therefore we need miracles to happen.. I want to make things happen!