bored

i'm bored real bored..

Fortunately i have friends.. to spend time with.. hee.. going Lot 1 now.. kinda feel that i forced someone there.. hope that its not that demanding or wad.. although i tink a bit.. =]

Eat to heart's content

Red bean and cream corn ice dessert w Durian topping

Mushroom swiss double
onion rings
french fries
chicken tender
coke light

hong kong char siew bo lo pao
pork chop and brinjal rice w shanghai sauce
mince meat cheese baked rice
peanut butter french toast
hong kong milk tea w grass jelly

yum yum..

Getting on with life

How weird can that be? We were all young before, been to primary schools, secondary schools and junior colleges, almost done with serving the nation, now what? Surprised that now i'm stepping out into the 'world' as an adult, a working adult and also an undergraduate. All my classmates/ bunkmates/ church friends are doing the same as well, but seems like the transition is kind of great to me. Stepping out into the unknowns where you now really rule your own life without the clutches of army laws and school rules. Wow! How fun is that?

Read ym blog about his contented life and how much he loves his job.. hope i'll be like that too, not only doing a good job, but to learn lessons and gain experiences on life, minus the bitching part.. hee.. Jia you!

Here I go Again

There's always a time for reflection for anyone and for any cause. Just read Ckblah's summary on how glad he is with what he has now and being contented with stable relationships, good friends, a job and sufficient rest time. I yearn for that too and perhaps, I have neglected them for quite some time. I haven't been visiting my grandma, feeling kind of guilty although the previous time I went Malacca I bought her pineapple tarts and Chestnut Biscuits. Maybe someday this month I should pop down and visit or ask my grandma and aunt and cousins out for dinner to celebrate my parents and my birthday on 15th or 16th.. hee..

I'm contented too, with a secured relief teaching job and also 2 tuitions on the way, seems like its gonna be quite busy for me next year but i'm not afraid, I believe that I can still make time for myself, taking this chance to improve on my weaknesses, turning them into my strengths, by the grace of God.

I'm gay, No.. I'm happy with my relationship and friendships. Found real happiness in every day's life is really like counting my blessings one by one. Life's never a bed of roses or not everyday is Sunday but guess I've lived everyday like a Sunday and made myself a bed of roses, being grateful and living each day a fulfilling and fantastic day. I will continue to stay faithful and treasure what that I've now. Will not let go unless people give up on me.

Well, I've been struggling with thoughts in my mind for the past weeks and i'm sure that I came up with my final decision on how the game is played. What the future holds, I don't really have an idea. But at least I like it now, this way, this pattern. Cheers!

Praise God!

Definitely need to thank God for this opportunity to step back into my graduated secondary school to teach. I can't imagine that yet but it is for real! I'm not going back to school to study or to visit my teachers, but to be their colleagues and to teach! Not just that, I'm teaching English for Secondary 2 and English Literature for Secondary 1. Wow! Now that I can earn money and also brush up on my English language before I step into University life. Thank God for this brilliant idea!

Not only this, I got blessed with 2 tuition cases this week, teaching a K2 kid Primary 1 subjects and also a Secondary 3 Physics and Chemistry. This is what I called blessed blessings~! I faithfully give onto God and God has blessed me back with so much more.. Hee.. Thank God!

Japanese Dessert's Food Fight

Ate at Ajisen @ IMM.. they have this new dessert selections similar to MOF at a lower price. Ate this special Macha Soft Serve with Seaweed Extract Jelly and Fruits with Red Bean Paste.. Taste really good when sweet dark sauce is drizzled over the green tea ice cream.. Red bean paste is not too sweet and delicious.. With mandarin oranges and peaches on the side. Main highlight is the Seaweed Extract Jelly that is said to be a dieting superior food.. Taste like normal agar agar with no sugar and dissolve more easily in the mouth.. The dessert also comes with mochi rolled in green tea powder.. Oiishii ne!

Back

having a super bad feeling over something.. dunno why..

had prayer meeting today.. haven't had such breakthrough praying for a long time. It was enjoyable to be in the presence of the LORD, praying in the spirit. After that was a fun time at Changi Airport where the group of us had our late lunch after the exhausting prayer meeting.. Then we popped down to Bras Basah only for a slice of Oreo Cheese Cake that is more creamy and fluffy than Cheesy and Oreoy, and tasted more like a lemon Cheese Cake.. Lol..

To my surprise which i dunno why, i'm into N162.. Pretty happy with the change actually that i'm back again.. but how abt sean and raymond.. hmmm.. i dunno.. hee..

Pic taken @ TCC on the night the multiplication news was announced.. Really feel that our friendship strengthened so much more after this separation that we grew to appreciate and treasure each other so much more.. Hope that we can continue to serve the LORD well and stay close with one another no matter where we are.. Let's trust GOD to bless this unique relationship between us..

Got to go

It has been almost a year since i've spent time in N162, my cell group. Was rather shocked to receive news in such short notifications that i am required to be transferred to another cell group by this weekend. Not that this is unexpected, but it happened too suddenly that i cant handle emotionally and mentally.

I love N162 a lot, some place i would be proud to be in. Whenever i invite friends for service, i will definitely introduce my cell group to them. This gives me a sense of belonging and also gives me something to communicate with my friends, knowing one another more. Remember being appointed the refreshment I/C soon after joining the cell group, tried making a lot of different food using eggs, bread and other ingredients. Something worth mentioning was the peanut butter french toast and fried rice, which were my first tries and i receive positive comments. They always encourage me when i make brownies, cookies or cakes, giving me advices and tips to make them better. I am grateful for them being so appreciative and that spurs me on for creating more delights.

It is only through this cell group that i finally open up myself, into confessing more of my problems and talking more with other people. I also learn to care and share with one another. It really edifies me a lot to love and understand people more.

Only recently, i've been told to be a helper to consolidate attendence for the people in my group and i volunteered to make the song sheet for the cell group. It might be tough and i often get stressed and depressed over it, i still managed to get them done and ensure that cell group meeting proceeds smoothly.

Just want to thank the CG for being so fun-loving and friendly.. My Jie mei = Raymond and Charlotte.. Leonard and Zihao for being such good brothers, Raymond filling me with lots of information on road directories, Jie Lin and Annie for giving advices and encouragements, and rest for being good company in the CG..

Gotta go.. Take Care..

Reflections

Been listening to queercast recently.. Talking about stepping out and coming out of the closet, it's not easy and requires a lot of courage.. I applause and salute people who are doing so, not just living life with a mask on, denying reality like it's a great sin and crime. Be cool and open about it..

Who has we to blame actually? Society? Or the people around us? More likely to be the people around us.. Afraid that they would persecute you and out you straight away, leaving you more depressed before the confession.. It hurts you and your loved ones, making things look awkward.. Its like, all the while you are fine and okay, till this piece of news break out of nowhere.. especially when lots of things are expected from you, respectable and highly looked upon on.. Although its sad, its the true cold fact.. Undeniably, i'm part of the people in disguise and disgust.. First few confesses are hard but certainly, as time goes by it shall be simplified in alot of ways..

Where am i??

***You Belong in Australia***


Ace!
Sunny, upbeat, and cute
You make the perfect surf bum
Now stop hogging the vegemite!


What English Speaking Country Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatenglishspeakingcountryareyouquiz/

This is so darn right!! Yep, i'm an Aussie!

Foolish things

Did some foolish things for the past week that even i have to laugh about it..

1) Hopping onto a bus hoping that it would bring me to where i want to go..
2) Roaming the streets of Orchard looking for food meant for the king!
3) Sinking my teeth into sinful delights
4) Eating so much pineapple tarts at night despite a severe sore throat.. [ Great! jus saw the doc cause it hurt too much.. ]
5) Losing a hp on the bus after taking a foto of a donut..

Wonderful Sunday

Time to blog about last weekend.. Gain a lb before book in on Thursday night.. Had COS duty and Guard duty simultaneously on Fri and Sat.. Very tired after that, but still, i went to church for Sunday service. Kinda surprised that i actually have 2 friends with me for service.. Cause i din really ask them but they approached me.. hee.. Really thank God for that.. especially when Stephen came and gave his heart to Jesus Christ.. glad that he actually came.. yeah.. now he can join me for service as well.. Praise God!

Here's some photos that were taken along the trip in KL/Malacca..

Back From M'sia

Could have been a wonderful and victorious trip haa.. except for the mishap that i had on way to Malacca.. Left my precious N70 on the coach and forgot all about it.. Coincidentally or bad omen is that i took a photo of a donut named 'happy' before i lost it.. and soon i become unhappy, brooding over the loss of my precious.. Not the value, but of its contents, messages and blah blah.. Love the fone alot actually.. But haiz.. after spending so much time (half an afternn) and money (Rm50 for taxi fare to the bus service workshop), and still it could not be found.. Ya its the careless me, as usual, got scolded by my mum and dad for that.. Things arent going smoothly somehow.. Feel down easily but till, there's lots of things to do and i seriously think i deserve another break again.. haa.. Cameron highlands?? hmm.. considering though..

Gotta go for dinner.. blog another time.. hee..

Happy Sin

Its just chocolates and sweets, filled with love, that really brighten up my day.. love it.. Though it is sinful and unhealthy, i shall not share with anyone else except..

It's the little things that people do that show that they care and love us, therefore we must be more appreciative towards the things that people do for us, specially for us.. Never take things for granted..

Yay!! Something amazing happened this morning.. All thanks to God.. At first i only have a friend, which is Jin Yao for service and i was really grateful le.. But this morning i received sms from ym that he has got a friend too.. somehow my heart got stirred and i sms another 2 friends.. Wei Kuan and Yuci.. And WK agreed to come too.. Thank God.. Yuci cant make it, but he agreed to come for Christmas.. Not only that, i already booked quite a lot of people for Christmas, looks like the love of God is really spreading, through us as well!

Desperatoir Ep01

Desperate Housewives - despite of its bitchy, juicy and sabotage set and characters entertaining teeveetians like us, i find that the show has shown women in a different perspectives. They do things to achieve what they want. That's for sure. Whether if it is the hint or the obvious loud way. Not that i disapprove of that and i don't really hold the rights anyway, its that i can actually relate to one or two of the characters in the show..

Lynette Scavo

A typical housewife who place her husband and her children before her, and would use every ways, whether up above or down under, just to make sure that she has got the best solutions, at least to her, for people she love and care for.. She is usually 'democratic' but she thinks a lot, much more further than the situation itself, and when she cant bottom it anymore, it will be released like a storm.. She is strong, filled with burdens, yet living life as it goes and not complaining. She needs a break that would never come, from her work and housework.. She got her dreams and desires but could not be fulfilled, these are the sacrifices she has to make for her family. Life's never easy for her but she wun throw in the towel.. FIGHT on's her attitude to life..

Time..

Been wanting to make this entry yesterday but was interrupted by the lag in the browser and also the need to help mum add many new songs into her new mp4 player.. She took me more than an hour to add in just the female singers' songs..

7 Days is only a week.. But the last 7 Days has been special to me.. It has been the happy and fulfilling time for me.. Really contented with what i've got.. It doesn't seem like 7 Days and i don't feel like time is dragging or what..

This song has been playing on my playlist for a long long time.. Meaningful to me at least.. hee..

可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃

Current Status

if i'm getting a sore throat tomoro, it's definitely someone's fault for giving me so much nuts to eat.. Eat so much nuts at one go, and gosh, it was exciting trying to 'tui huo' when i got too much of it..

haa.. It was funny figuring and guessing what color was the fruitip pastille before eating.. Way to solve the problem --> eat it please.. however the blackcurrant taste a bit orange.. so weird but sweet..

Enuff with food ba.. gonna nurse my throat tomoro i guess.. need more water but not sparkling drink hee.. there are things i don't do because i usually don't do it.. but i'll try however as long as it promises positive results and returns =P..

Cant wait to settle on my schedule this weekend, someone gonna bring me out~ gee

We're in this together

Time passed thru fast these few days.. Especially my COS duty that ended so soon without me feeling that time is dragging.. Getting to know the other COSes [and also people left in coy line.. we are known as the leftovers.. heh] and working together, talking about what we want to do in the future.. what future holds i dunno.. trying to be positive about it.. or i have always been optimistic lar.. looks good to me anyway.. haa..

Actually in quite a good mood recently.. hmm.. Watch the buffy musicial @ youtube.com, the songs are nice! Found a new way of drinking water and fruitips have never tasted so good before.. haa

Crossroad

Affirmation.. what the heck.. i'm really confused.. sometimes things in life arent just right or wrong, black or white.. hence the existence of partially and grey areas. Me, for instance, is stuck in the moment.. need some time to think it over, it's complicating anyway.. and in many ways.. haa.. i am one lame screwed up..

whateva.. really looking forward to the malaysia trip, been waiting for a time to relax and have fun overseas and india doesnt count.. and i really count my blessings and want to treasure what i have in my life.. especially friends and family.. haiz.. thank god for being with me even at my downest moments.. i will be honest and faithful.. thank god for the blessings even before i pledge and i'm definitely waiting on God to pour down his blessings forever and ever.!~

Back on track

Been a long time ever since i last blogged.. a lot of things happen and yet i was unable to take control of all of them and be a part in some of them.. Haa.. here's the list..

1. I fired my dear driving instructor for entrusting so much errands such as driving him to the repair shop, coffee shop and toilet breaks. Wondering how come no coffin shop?

2. Movie galore: the prestige - movie with scarlett as a big vase, black dahlia - another movie with scarlett as a big vase that moves, think Hilary Swank did better in the movie. Death note - A great manga turned movie only to realise that light isn't as dashing as the manga's and L is really laid back and cool!

3. Realising that God is always faithful and working in mystery.

4. I'm on leave most of the time and spending little chalet holidays in camp once in a while.. Kinda exciting as well.. ORD mood is lingering in the air..

5. Found a job as a TCC service crew.. gaining experience a bit late but nevertheless, a cuppa is always heartwarming and flavorful.. and also as an bookseller assistant at Westgrove

6. Going KL twice in Nov/Dec.. Cool and tiring i dare say, not forgetting Wei Quan's proposal of going Bangkok.. still thinking through..

Manhood

What a subject to touch on?! I've decided to take a big step of faith.. Trust God that He would bless me many many folds as I serve and give faithfully to the kingdom of God..

Without planning, I plan to fail.. Decided to go according to some sort of pattern, to save myself from getting wasted; wasting time, i.e wasting my life and spoiling myself.. That needs lots of determination and discipline.. I know that.. God will pull me thru'.. Yea.

It's such a bad idea to sneak for a late night movie.. Although the show was definitely exciting and intriguing.. But i don't feel good.. I really don't.. Haiz.. what has been done cannot be undone.. I better start working on how to save it.. PLANs.. and SoluTionS!

Miracles

Some things are definitely unbelieveable.. an relationship can turn sour anytime, the table can turn around.. Things made good can go bad.. Therefore we need miracles to happen.. I want to make things happen!

A day out

Due to the lack of participants and tiredness, we have decided to give up on going to East Coast Park for fellowship.. But after thinking thru and discussing, the few of us decided to go there.. Thank God that i was there.. Just a group of us, Raymond, Jie Lin, Leonard, Charlotte and Me.. Having fun playing bridge, joking and blowing air-con at one another.. Definitely wouldn't forget today for its the first time I rollerbladed!! Fall down like N times but it is still enjoyable.. Now the cute and sweet bois can rollerblade already, just that one fall the other might just fall, its pretty contagious.. Must thank our mentors for the good teachings.. haa

After all these fun we had.. We went down to New York New York for dinner, surprised to see a smurf and fatts there too.. There we continue to bridge and have a wonderful dinner together, sharing is so much fun..

I believe I can come out of the valley. There are people who care and are willing to help.. Feel so much better after sharing my thoughts and toils with Raymond, making me realize that not only I feel the same.. So I strongly encourage myself and people who are the same to take a step of faith courageously, trusting and believing in Him.

The Banquet

First time that I initiated to watch a 'wu xia' movie.. Don't really like to watch such shows, cause they are boring and draggy. But this is different.. I got attracted to the show because of Zhou Xun and Ziyi Zhang.. They are such powerful and good actresses after Gong Li [ I like her role as Hatsumomo]. Later i realise that this show portraits the harsh reality of life, backstabbing and hypocrites do exist. Sometimes we don't know which side to stand on to protect ourselves and our love ones..

Kinda pity 'Qing Nu'.. dying for her unconditional love for 'Prince Wu Luan' although she kinda caused her own death.. Till the end of the show, I still cant tell whether the empress wan er is a good character or a villain.. even when she died.. She was so power hungry that she could kill anyone in her way.. Sometimes love is really powerful..

Take it ALL

The LORD is my shepherd;
I do not want.

Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Life's like this.. Ya.. Off i go into the valley again.. Cant help it.. Depressed.. See what a long break can do to me.. Make me ponder and think about too many things. Life's a struggle with Life itself.. When will i step out of this valley? i dunno..

Playing on the slide

Seems like it, the journey is ending; i suppose so. It doesn't seem to be as simple as it is before, not as heartwarming as before and definitely not as ideal as before. It is obviously more demanding, more unpleasant and more pressurizing. Do i have a vision? Until now I don't.

Redeeming the time, for the days are evil.
So I need to learn to number my days and not waste them.

Life isn't that good all the time yar?

Giving In

Its time to brace up and face it.. I'm nearing 20 and ORD and i don't have much achievements.. Am i good enough? Am i Faithful? Am i a good friend/ listener? I cant judge myself but what i can do is to try and be a better person then..

Anger, Hurt, Fear, Regret, Intention, Love.. I give in..

Sick

Guessed i must have scared a lot of people.. I felt so weak.. cant walk properly, breathlessness fills me.. and coldness kills me.. I had food poisoning, although i wished it was because of the cookhouse' breakfast.. it isn't.. Its not expired cornflakes either.. Its some oyster omelette i ate that might be too oily and raw ya.. Anyway, i felt so much better today.. Imagine yesterday i was still wearing jeans, a polo tee and a jacket and with blanket and socks, sleeping without air con or a fan.. and still i felt cold.. vomitted so badly at night.. yucks.. no more hor fun for me.. i suppose i will go bland this few days.. Milo is now my best fren.. lol..

But i want to thank god ya, for not forsaking me ya.. not that He 'blessed' me with this sickness, but actually showed me how much i'm cared for.. my family showered me with care and concern which i deeply appreciated.. I could ask for food from mum anytime when i'm hungry.. my sis give in to me.. Dad came to camp and drove me home.. Friends would ask whether if i'm alright.. willing to pray for me.. Really grateful, i can recover so fast by the grace of God ya.. He's my Jehovah Rapha..

Food Galore!

Since its the post-outfield time, one can definitely spot traces of 40SAR soldiers on Orchard road's restaurants, big or small, buffet or ala carte.. eating their hearts out.. I'm one of them too, and i'm glad that i have the company of a group of fun guys while having a ma fan tasty meal @ NEWYORK² on Sat.. and then having desserts at NYDC to round up, bringing the food trip to an end.. I guessed we had the most fun with the massaging chairs, where our legs are tickled and squeezed awkwardly.. however, it still feels good.. haha

This is not the end.. after sun service i went to food fest with Annie, Jac and Zihao, looking for exotic and delicious snacks.. First up, me and Zihao helped ourselves to a Black Sesame ice- cream and Green tea ice cream.. Then, we all had egg tarts, after that is bbq char chiew Pao then satays larger and juicier than the usual ones, then 2 sistas had laksa together while zihao gets a shark fin soup, something worth mentioning is the durian puffs, the taste is so explosive, that even now i still burp durian! Wow! So fulfilling.. and meal is ended with hmm.. a packet of fried mushroom crisps wasabi flavoured!! So cool lor.. i like wasabi!

No matter how life is.. we still need to eat and live, so y not enjoy them while we could?

Anger Management

God, i say to you now, that i give you my anger, that i shall be angry when i should, but in a totally controlled manner. I will not sin against you but to find the best way to resolve the problem. For i love you like you love me.. Agape

Ord-ing

Thank God, it's all over.. the many many dirty outfields have finally finished.. Was wondering how i managed to clear it.. it seems so far then.. but now its all over.. no more field camps.. no more signal sets (at least for now) and no more gigiantic map boards! Oh no, i forgot to step on the Tes' set which is extremely bulky and heavy, even heavier than my signal set.. Yea.. finally i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.. closing to be Operational ready NSmen.. time to get a life haha..

It's time to reflect and plan what's ahead, especially offs and leaves ya.. been slogging so much that i think i need a decent break, to clean up my horrible room and virus-juicy computer.. and also find joy in what i'm doing.. been into too much stress and pressure that i feel depressed at times.. haha.. however, i guess its alright already.. haa.. going for morning jog + breakfast.. Ciao..

Why bother?

Everyone's linked up.. by relationship, blood or bond.. and it takes lots of time to make them work.. i definitely know that.. Pray that i could step out of the asocial and avoidant personality and work towards a better relationship.. Ministry people all nice people.. thanks Issac, Joseph, Elaine, Caroline and Wai Sum.. =]

Farmer.. wake up please?

i'm tired

This couldn't be more obvious.. I'm tired.. running out of breath.. blogging in the middle of the night.. haha.. turning a bit cranky and screw loosed nowadays.. at least not being loose and leading a promiscous life.. Time that i wished i have more time..

I read the book 'King Me' which is a parenting book which i accidentally [ i believe incidentally by God.. He set me up] chanced upon in the library.. It questioned my faith and for the first time, giving me doubts about the beliefs of my own church.. The book strengthened me spiritually and i gained much knowledge from it, whether does it applies to daily life, the struggle to maintain a good relationship with my parents but also biblical studies that teaches lessons that could be learnt from few Kings, namely King David and King Solomon.. What stunted me was one of the chapter speaking right into my heart, something that had been bothering me for so long, is about to be released from me, that i may become a much better person. Thank God!

Found it very much comfortable talking to Wei yuan about leading the Christian Lifestyle, how he managed to walk in faith although there are road blocks and tripping stones around in his path..

One last thing: people that you think you are close to might not be the ones who would stand by you in time of needs. But God does! [ but that's another story]. What i mean is where are the people when you need help? Why is it that people come and share your glory and fruits of labour when you clearly know that they din put in as much as you do.. or not even placing a finger on it? Can it be justified? Teach me.. should i continue complaining? Definitely not, and surely, i would not give face or keep silence if that happens again.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

Bad Bad week

Praise god today, cause that will bring about a positive attitude and will definitely take away all the bad stuff that happen..

This week is really bad, all about working till i'm exhausted.. sleeping very early at 9pm++ every night, found myself complaining alot about work, maps, blown ups, air photos, perfectionism, 4ntm, blah... very disturbed, stressed, tired and cant be bothered.. Thank god it's over.. heh.. and from next week, i must try my best to accomplish more.. not to live in bitterness, living up to what i should be.. Yeah.. remember Psalms 23:4!!

Story of the farmer

Well, i'm no story teller, but i guess this is what i can do to help someone in need of help and do not know that he or she requires it.. I would encourage people to face their problems and not to hide from them as no matter what happens, it would affect you the most, not me, not other people..

Simple, a farmer sows his seeds on the fields.. and collects harvests twice a year.. He has a few workers with him, loyal and helpful, never really complain about having overworked. They shared meals, laughter and joy. One day, the farmer fell for gambling and decided to wind up his small little business that is stable. He hardly win, but fell deeper and deeper.. no matter how his workers and friends try to bring him back and counsel him, he just got more addicted and spent days and nights thinking of gambling, getting really bad-tempered and changed totally.. He lost his smile, and his workers' hearts shattered.. seeing that the farmer landed in such a bad shape and situation. Gambling brought to him nothing but depression, fury and self-pity.. The more he give, the sadder he feels.. withered and unhappy.. Here's what the workers' say, " we need you back, our hands are always stretched out towards u for u to hold onto us, to save and rescue u from ur dilemma and woes. we might not be always physically there, but bear in mind, gambling has harmed u enough isn't it? y keep on hanging on? it does u no good.. we'll support you, alright?"

farmer, wise up will ya?

Advancing into the Next Level

All things follow in a pattern.

1. Introduction -- Aquaintance -- Friendship -- Intimacy

Been enlightened by the word of God.. its like a new revelation to me. Knowing that God wants to restore back the intimacy with man once more through Jesus Christ, knowing that all man are born sinful and needed to be introduced to God before knowing God, establishing relationship with God and further on getting an intimate relationship with God.

2. Information + Renewal of the Mind = Beliefs -- Self Esteem -- Actions/Behaviour -- Results -- Habits -- Success or Failure

Realising how information and the changing of how i think can affect my success or failure to a certain issue, it is so important to receive the best information and renew my mind in the correct way to developing the right attitude, great authority and dignity to be able to take charge and be responsible over what i do, giving me results and progression into success..

God bless!

Bookstore Uncle

todae is the 2nd time that i serve at the bookstore, this time round dressed formally [ some say i look good, some say i look like attending wedding dinner, some say look like uncle.. haha] as Dr. A.R.Benard is the guest speaker this week.. I arrived at Hall 8 @ around 8.05am with Issac and Joseph.. I was shocked by the no. of copies of books i see there.. the one titled 'happiness is' by Dr A.R.Benard.. there are so many stacks of them that me and Elaine wouldn't know how to display them to look most presentable efficiently.. We ended up stacking buildings and castles like what Samuel did.. Something i noticed was how people there really tried to remember one another name, being friendly and helpful with one another..

When the crowds started pouring in, it was overwhelming.. People were buying books by stacks.. I was about to place some more stocks on the lighted tanker when a lady walked over and asked for 9 copies.. Then i have to get more stocks already, half the time i was trying my best to approach people and help them if necessary, not to forget directing people to the wrong place for the autograph session.. not on purpose, wai sum and i are guilty of that.. todae's service was so packed that we were wondering if we could get a seat in the audi.. and i did heh.. proud of that.. getting thru so many ushers and people..

It's friendship appreciation time.. really want to thank N162 for bringing joy to my life, being a cosy place to grow spiritually with so many brothers and sisters, able to know more about one another.. Recieved so many chocolate and cards, appreciate that alot..

And its also a fun time of fellowship with the CG and subzone at Meridien JC.. lol.. imagine someone playing netball in long pants, soccer shoes and t-shirt.. weirdx3.. din expect myself to be playing, nevertheless i had a great time playing with the SOC obstacles in the school.. yes.. its the low wall that is as high as the low ramp, low rope, monkey bars, sucide window and parallel bars.. The MVP got to be Charmaine for getting a '3 pointer' shoot when no one could have expected.. haha.. ended at 7pm.. latex3

Its all worth it and i feel satisfied.. Thank God for creating vibrant colours in my life, i will continue to serve Him well. Hallejulah

Long time

I cant believe that i've been so busy that i cud not blog at all.. Although it uses a bit of my time, yet it tells me of what i am going through and wad have i accomplished..

Especially last week i went for the firework festival at Marina Bay, setting off at 7plus, only to find out that everyone's there since long before that time and the crowds and the traffic jams are extremely scary.. Since when do we have so many people? Anyway, we found a good place @ Marina south grass field to watch the amazingly gorgeous firework.. i really like the 'Money tree' alot since the last time i saw it at NDP when i was in Sec 3.. Now i actually see a lot of money trees bursting in the sky.. It was SO beautiful! And i was happily eating a curry chicken drumstick when watching.. haha.. Soon after the short firework and the show is over, we all moved on to Geylang for durians! not a lot la, but few good ones and we left looking for more food around Geylang, especially frog leg porridge.. but we cant find a parking lot and so we went to Bt Timah Market for Carrot Cake, satay and fried oyster egg.. felt very full after that.. Satisfying.. Life's good when hanging out with family and good food..

This week, has been a tough one for me.. terrors of outfield, i'm still itching right now.. and today i just did a 16km run at ECP, and its such a long route.. i'm still wondering if i would be able to complete 21km.. my legs are about to burst with cramps..

Pointers to take this week:
1. Do not eat ice-cream that someone else feeds you, you might end up licking the person's hand.. haha..
2. Do not be tempted or else stomach upsets follow.. got a very bad experience after the run today which i tink is related to thursday nights off..
3. Try to stay out of the offices.. u wun want to have ur name called for SK..

Pop Culture

Basically I'm sucker for pop music, although once in a while i would prefer something more smoothing like the good old sentimental oldies or chinese songs. Nevertheless, I listen to good music everything, some trashy songs included.

Brings me back to my point, that songs all just go according to the liking to the listeners, and since Pop is more easily acceptable, it is definitely because it is rather addictive and catchy. So people, bear with it, especially when songs RING in our heads, spinning round and round like how L.O.V.E. makes the world go round.. wadeva it means ( quoted from ja)


Sun's music sounds really good. Something which i call music that heals the soul. Songs that people can relate to easily. Songs that encourage one to move on and see the light. This is definitely not some trashy pop songs that focus on bootylicious figures in the mtvs or some cutie pies that are too sweet to be true. Music for the heart i must say. =D

Talk around

I never like talking to people.. and talking for the sake of talking, although at times we need to communicate with people to know them more and also to prevent situations from getting more awkward. It is especially essential to know the ways of relating to people and able to express oneself truthfully and positively to others, leaving not just a good impression, but a friendship that follows thru.

We often think that we are just small little beings, one less one more doesn't matter. But God already knows how we look like, how many strands of hair we have, what we would encounter.. way before we are born, even the most minute detail. God has great plans for us. That we should dream dreams and see vision, and fulfill our purpose in life thru Jesus Christ that strengthens us.. I totally agree with CK that although God has plans for us, we are still the one walking the pave that is paved out. One thing to be glad is that God is always walking with us, whether if its the mountain tops or the deep valleys. He would be there to share your joy and sorrows, and comfort one whenever he or she is in need.

Therefore, we need to trust and have faith in God, people around us, ourselves and the future.

Thank you

Thank You for the promises You made,
for the gift of life You gave,
Always I will sing Your praise.

Thank You for the chance to live again,
for Your grace that never ends,
Always I will sing Your praise.

Wanna thank god for the things that He did for me, even if they are just small and minute stuffs, but i greatly appreciate that. Thank god for making me the no.26 of the 30 that the CCC band are going to autograph for after deciding that it was rather late. Thank god for letting me reach home fast and safely with the company of raymond. Thank god for putting people into my life, to befriend me, help me improve and move on in life. Hallelujah!

Great is Our God

its the 2nd time that i attended the Festival of Praise, and this time round with another identity, as a retail serviceman at Attributes at the North Entrance. i certainly do believe that a lot of hard work has to be put in to make the bookstore functioning.. loads of paintings, books, music cds, sermon cds, dvds, accessories and etc to be placed properly and different booths to cater for the customers. Queue marshall, cashiers, retails and logistics.. many people have to work together for the good works.. Work aside, i preferred last year's FOP as the songs were better (Sorry CCC and Don Moen), fact being that it was Hillsong and Delirious? performing. Also that i wasn't able to enjoy the full service due to ministry.. But still, no regrets for anything that i have done for today..

I feel estatic over getting an autograph from and a photo with the CCC band on their latest compilation album: Great is Our God.

12km out of 21km

More than halfway through this race, reaching the ending point soon.. What would i be doing after that i dun really know, but that time will tell...

Army taught us how to make things that are simple really complicated.. talk about organising a normal run.. we got to take 1hr trip to get to the place, 30mins of waiting time, 15mins of briefing time, 15mins of warming up and cooling down and also the run itself, about 1hr.. but isn't the run just 1hr.. nope.. talk about the manpower involved to set up water points, road marshalls, drivers to drive the store. Plus point would be creating more job opportunities for the bus drivers.

Soon after the run, i hitched Fattshin's car to Eunos to continue my route home.. What a long way.. since i need to get off Jurong east to buy baking materials and then took a wrong route to chinese garden which is nearly 4 bus stops to take 180 home.. Wow.. and still to buy my dinner and bubble tea for my sister.. reaching home only near 9pm.. tired out.. but i know this week got to be fun..

FOP and CHC's 17th anniversary.. 2 WOW events in a weekend.. YEAH!

the meaning of..

in 5 hours time i have to wake up.. i'm not sleeping yet..
a new challenge awaits for me..

first driving lesson let me understood how bad is my cyclomotor problem
at least i know that my hands can co-ordinate better than my feet,
not to worry..
more lessons more practices would be beneficial
how much i dunno..

learning to love is not easy
especially when it involves making the effort to sacrifice time, money and more..
i'm trying i'm trying..
not to be bad-tempered
not to interfere too much that is none of my concern
not to gossip on other people
not to feel disappointed and
not to remember much that is wrong for..
I should forgive and forget like Christ did..

not yet again..

yep, i shifted back here.. change of base..
tag tag tag...